... DANCE ....

ouh my GUCCI!!!

i don't dance already, pity me. **sobs**
i miss it.
well i'm getting fatter and heavier everyday~~~
ouh, my balance, getting worse i think.
i need that STEPS. huhuhu

ouh, watch this guys!!! i can only feel satisfied in dancing thingy when i can do something like this???? thehehehehehe... AMAZING~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

aku PELIK~

aku PELIK dengan manusia yang SAMPAI HATI.

aku PELIK dengan manusia yang BANGGA & RIAK dengan pengalaman yang tiada ERTI yang PASTI.

aku PELIK dengan manusia yang sanggup BERSENGKANG MATA untuk 'berbincang' hampir SETIAP HARI.

aku PELIK dengan manusia yang BAGUS tapi selalu lupa untuk MUHASABAH diri sendiri.

1>> lau kne batang idong ko?? AGAK2LA sikit**

2>> 1 je komen aku, BASI! **

3>> if ada faedah, xpe. bikin KAYA, xpe. siyes~~**

4>> riak itu tidak bagusss~~~**

aku ni hanye mengejar kejayaan, kebahagiaan dan kesejahteraan hidup.

kadang aku terKHILAF juge.

hanya 1pesanku untuk dirimu, TOLONG JANGAN KAU MINTA DIRI KAU DI BENCI AKU ATAU ORANG2 DI SEKELILING MU~

ikhlas,

SI AKU~~

TAMAN SINAR HARAPAN K.K.B

ok..skip the post about my birthday..
erm,mayb a bit la. hehe
i celebrate it with my love. thanx to YOU. love u.
n to all my friends,thanx 4 d wishes~~

now i'm in KKB,doin my training here for the next 2months starting May,3rd.
so...what shud i say?i mean about this new place..

new house... i feel calm.. PEACE. ;p

erm,TSH KKB, here ,they put those OKU people (mostly bedridden with Cerebral palsy and autism) and all we can do for them is maintaining their present condition.
ouh..n got some mental patient (the aggressive 1) huhu

so... do pray for my safety here ya?

thanx!!!

14 APRIL 2010

hehe..me very the gewdixx at the moment. CANT HELP IT!! ha ha

act,I'm kinda worry...about him going for his training later on June.
this GF,the KUAT JELES 1 keep thinking that;
**he might forget about me.
**he might repeat the same mistake he did (lied 2me cz afraid that i will get upset n worry like DA&* crazy)
**he might find some1 better than me. ( and obviously,sure ADA la kan? sob3 )

he fetched me from the hospital this evening.then we had dinner together.
so i took that chance to tell him bout my worries. AS ALL ABOVE~~

and like always he m'bebel about the famous OLD ME..... BUT
then he smile and said, "saya pergi training,so THATS IT,nak kerja dah lepas tu kan.."..

and me?? a bit LEGA laaa... just a bit. heheh

after that he took me for a ride,jalan2 je.
in the car he hold my hand and said, 'saya sayang awak, Nadia'..
n i was like... SUKE3!!!!!
i appreciate it dear. i know its hard for u to really say those 3words.
n for today,i keep it in this blog.

wish this would last.
wish we get thru all obstacles n finally be 2geta.

AMINN~~~

APRIL '10

hye~~~
yeah2..i didnt update my blog for a longggggggggggggg time.
too bz+ lazinesss~~~

so..
let jz say..
life have been OKAY,so far.
sure theres many problems tho.like owez (financial probs,friendship,love life,family,WORK)...
i just dont have the idea on how to put it all down...

FINANCIAL
***there is HUGE increase (rent) in my so called 2nd home in shah alam (triple than usual) !!! due to PAIP BOCOR~~~
***need lotsa money this month since its my final months here in shah alam and DEMC. need to buy SOMETHING for those in our department. ("-.-)

FRIENDSHIP
***met many of my primary n highschool classmates, HAPPY!!!!! (even thru FB.hehehe)

LOVE LIFE
***going SMOOTH....going nice and steady with the flow.
*** in <3 (^^,)

FAMILY
***those in JB miss me so much.hahah! i miss them too. LIKE CRAAAAAAAAAAAAZY!!!
***wishing this would last FOREVER~~~

WORK
***final week in DEMC. (shud be ended on April 16)
***have to replace 4days due to MC's,so i'll only goin back to JB after 20. **sob3**


so...WHAT ELSE?????

ouh.....its APRIL okay??
i mean, APRIL.
GOT IT??
thehehehehehehe


mode>> SO DAMN EXCITED

january..

salam....

didnt BLOG 4 a longgggggggg time. huhu

wat cn i say.. busyyyyy~~~

with practical...some stupid personal probs...n health probs.

ow...i suffered from dengue the end of january.
been warded, almost die.. yet here i m. ;) ALHAMDULILLAH~~

**our late Sultan passed away...
**realised that i hv to WORK harder~~

u know...i'm getting serious in this PHYSIOTHERAPY thingy..imma go for IT!

wish...

today i'm settling my register fee for diz coming new term.
done it at BANK ISLAM.. rm250.
wil b registering for new term on 12 til 14 ou august. cant wait!!
i miss schoolllllll..... =( sob3


pay my house rent already..

so thats it.

it just....




bile loan nak masuk nihhhhhhhhhhh???!!!! help!!!!!!!!

Michael

lawi told me.. some says that usually those who have 'MICHAEL' as their 1st, middle or last name is "somebody". like michael shumacher, michael jordan, michael jackson....

ok.. i'm carried away.. i muz say. suddenly all peoples admitting that they loves MJ so much. frankly speaking, i'm not a big fan of him. but i have to say i know almost everything he's been thru, obviously bcoz its on PAPER, in the internet. u know? since he is somebody right?

pedophilia.. gay.. plastic surgeries.. neverland.. bancruptcy.. prince michael I, paris, blanket.. and etc..

since i'm not a fan of him, so i dont really care about all that. really. his life. so what?

but june 25, i must say i'm shocked. he's gone. well i'm waiting "THIS IS IT" concert. i want to c him. is he stil great? is he stil got da move? u know.. i want to really watch MICHAEL JACKSON.
but.. he's gone. May GOD bless him.

it make me watch 1 of his video, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I NEVER WATCH IT !! i cried. YES,,, i cry like watching 1litre of tears. dammit! sob3

few days passes.. still, wenever he's story on the news, i suddenly cry. he is somebody. i look for his biography and stuff. i read all the story. and this is wat i have to say.


at least the past 10years, he's never happy. HE's a grown up man. but his heart, mind.. he is still a kid. yes, he is not normal. ARE WE NORMAL EITHER??? he's growing up in front of thousands eyes since he was 5. can u imagine that? he barely know wat NORMAL is. i'm sure, all his life, he want to make other people happy. and here, i say, HE IS NOT A PEDOPHILE. he loves kids, i mean LOVE=CARE. y? becoz dun get the chance to really been loves and care by a real ADULT! he been in this field (entertaiment) coz he want to change his family life. he did it.

somehow i feel like, everybody that close to him, that he trust, took advantage on his kindness. really. too much too say bcoz i got to know who MICHAEL JACKSON is only after he's gone.

yeah.. shame on me..

n still, i'm crying.. i d k y. =(

i think i love him.

to MJ>> u will owez b in our heart, u've change the world. thats what u want, n u have to know that u've made it. May GOD bless your soul. and now, all this people, wil totally leave u alone. and they will owez remember u and all ur songs.. I LOVE YOU.

.. F.R.I.E.N.D.S ..

saya ada kawan, nama dia KOTAK.

dia baik dan dia comel.

semalam dia teman saya buat assignment sampai subuh.

terima kasih KOTAK.

ouhh.. TAK, thnx tau layan kepale biol ku nih.. thnx sbb rela kena buli ngn aku. ko x mara kn?? =D

hope kita kawan sampai bile2. =)

again, thanx KOTAK.. =)

your 'GIFT' for me.. should i keep it? hold to it?

<<1>>
My song is love
My song is love, unknown
But I'm on fire for you, clearly
You don't have to be alone
You don't have to be on your own

And I'm not gonna take it back
And I'm not gonna say I don't mean that
You're the target that I'm aiming at
And I'm nothing on my own
Got to get that message home

And I'm not gonna stand and wait
Not gonna leave it until it's much too late
On a platform I'm gonna stand and say
That I'm nothing on my own
And I love you, please come home..

<<2>>
And I..
Will never try to deny,
that you're my whole life,
'cause if you ever let me go,
I would die..
So I won't front,
I don't need another woman,
I just need your all and nothing,
'cause if I got that,
Then I'll be straight
Baby, you're the best part of my day..

<<3>>
There is no 1 day I walk without thinking of you,
No 1 night I’m sleeping without dreaming of you,
I wish a future with you, that is so promising and it would be true
I just love you and want just you..

LISTEN TO ME....

THESE THINGS I'LL NEVER SAY

I'm tugging at my hair, I'm pulling at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool but I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet and my cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head

I'm feeling nervous, trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it

If I could say what I want to say, I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night, am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see, I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today, Yes, I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

It don't do me any good, it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you, what's on my mind
If ain't coming out, we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care

What's wrong with my tongue, these words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble... Like I've got nothing to say
Guess I'm wishing my life away
with these things I'll never say

If I could say what I want to say, I'd say I wanna blow you...away
Be with you every night, am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see, I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today, guess I'm wishing my life away
These things I'll never say..

THE BEST DAMN THING

I hate it when a guy doesn't get the door

even though I told him yesterday and the day before...

I hate it when a guy doesn't get the tab

and I have to put my money out and that looks bad!

Where are the hopes? Where are the dreams?

My Cinderella story scene. When do you thinkthey'll finally see......

That you're not, not, not, gonna get any better,

you won't, won't, won't, you won't get rid of menever,

like it or not even though she's a lot like me....

We're not the same, and yeah, yeah, yeah

I'm a lot to handle, you don't know trouble

I'm a hell of a scandal, me, I'm a scene, I'm a drama queen,

I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen!

I hate it when a guy doesn't understand

why a certain time of month, I don't want to hold his hand,

I hate it when they go out and we stayin,

and they come home smelling like their ex-girlfriends...

I found my hopes, I found my dreams.

My Cinderella story scene.

Now everybody's gonna see.....

I'm a lot to handle, you don't know trouble

I'm a hell of a scandal, me, I'm a scene, I'm a drama queen,

I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen!

Where are the hopes? Where are the dreams?

My Cinderella story scene. When do you think they'll finally see......

I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen!

hmmhhhh

understand

I may do things you don't understand...

I used to think that happiness could only be something that happened to somebody else
Everybody believed, everybody but me
And I've been hurt so many times before
That my hope was dying
So sick of trying
Everybody could see, everybody but me
But then you came into my life
You opened up my softer side
And I can see into your eyes
And suddenly I realize

I Made you think (You don't understand)
All the times you didn't understand
Why you couldn't just be my man
I made you think (You don't understand)
There were many walls you had to climb
If you really wanted to be mine
I Made you think (You don't understand)
After all the hoops I put you through
Now I see that I'm in love with you
Now I hope you finally understand

So many tears I had to cry
But you had many more of your own you had to dry
But you stuck it out and you're here with me now,
And remember in the days I pushed away your love
You caught my bluff and you still stayed around
Yeah you figured me out
Said you got me down

And there's no way I'd lie to you
You know me better than I do
You see me through
I'd be no good
Without you

Baby won't you listen now
Can't you see just what I'm talking 'bout
Said baby won't you listen now
Can't you see just what I'm talking 'bout

Time went on
And I was wrong
To keep my distance for so long
So afraid
You wouldn't stay
But you never turned away
Yeah

Always strong
By my side
You're forever in my life
Don't you go
Coz now I know
That in you I found a home

And I can see into your eyes
And suddenly I realize

this song was sang by Christina Aguilera, i love her!! ermm.. love this song. really love it...

... the break up ...

yeah.. i break up with him. i hope this time for real. i'm tired. i m really2 tired.

i just feel that he don't want me. do i love him? yeah. but that's it.
enough is enough.. (i guess...)

GOD please make me strong. please.

to plain, sorry to bother u. i just don't know what to do.
u're a good friend.
to kak nona, thanks for the advice. its hard. life is hard. i can see how u struggle, i'm proud of u and i wish i can be strong like u.

but i'm afraid... i'm scared...