D.O.N.E

yup2, done my theory exam just now...
100 MCQ in 1 and a half hour..
urm,,, it was OKAY laa... not too hard yet not too easy. heh
i'm relieved.
I REALLY AM~~

went to DEMC to meet our physios there.
ouh myyy.. the new hospital is AWESOME!!!!!
and all of them LOSE WEIGHT. like, A LOT!!!
i miss them like soverydamnMUCH!!!! hehe
talk a lot, share a lot. will miss all the moments.

Madam Zu, Miss V, Miss Ira, En. Suhaib, THANK YOU so much for all the help, the guidances, the support, the spirit in loving our profession. I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER ALL OF U.
thank you~

then went to Plaza Alam Sentral.
BAJU RAYA!!! weeeee... tons of it!! gonna buy it maybe tomorrow??? InsyaAllah~~
went for karaoke too. hehe. crazy~
suppose to accompany ratna's sis in concorde for buka puasa, but buka puasa with her guy n her friends instead.

what a sweet coincidence, we're going to the same restaurant where our other classmates will buka puasa. haha
too late to jon the party so stick to the plan, buka puasa with ratna's guy and friends~

a hectic day, yet I had fun. ;)

UNISELIANS, i heart every each 1 of u. thanks for the memories~
SHAH ALAM, will I be to ur city again after this??? hmmmhhhh

you just a kid & u barely know how exactly the WORLD is spinning

i actually upset at this moment..
peoples.. are unpredictable. their heart, mind.
tend to be GOOD in front of us, but behind us?? GOD knows~~

I have to say I AM NO GOOD but I AM NOT THAT BAD.. (well BAD is very subjective~~)
I trust almost nobody. and I have concrete reasons for that. don't blame me.

so let me start..
get to know an innocent girl 1 year back. a freshie.
help her by showing her around our place in Shah Alam n etc.
advised her on how to run a proper life in this new place.we're quit close at 1st.
i help her with study, assignments, test...

after few months, she's joining a group.
and she started to change.
trying to be just like other people in the group.
she bcomes such a rude, selfish, arrogant (MISS PERFECTO WHO KNOWS EVERYTHING)~~
erm.. i just say that she bcome a LOSER and POSER. sorry kid.

for the last few months we're not really talking to each other due to some personal issues.
and I'm the kind who dont give a SH%& to people who talking behind my back. but when it comes to my ear from a very convincing sources/peoples, U'l see my true colors.

few nights ago a friend asked, do i realized that THE GIRL has changed?
well,sure i did. so that friend tells me 1 after 1 thing that THE GIRL said behind my back.
i'm shocked, PISSED OFF!! grrr

1>> betul ke kak nad tu royalty??
2>> if betul, kenapa umah dia biasa2 je??
3>> betul ke kak nad tu pandai sangat??

and some other stuff too.

well dear, my answers would be;

1>> my 1st name should tell you EVERYTHING. ouh.. mayb u r TOO STU#@& to see it. and if i'm not pun, apa kau nak sibuk kan?? duhhh..
2>> alahaiiii... okay, i'm living in a double storeys house, a corner lot. ouh, and my PARENTS own IT. and u know what, for details, DO COME OVER and see it with your own EYES. u r WELCOME to my HEAVEN. ;D
3>> am I that clever??? what a stupid question. WHO HELPED u in ur study for the past 1 year? wanna see my result slip? or my SPM certificate? okay, i admit, I AM NOT THAT BRIGHT but.. I AM 10x CLEVER THAN YOU. and u know that kiddo. loserrrr~~

haishh.. adik, i've been patient for almost 5months now.
but what u said behind my back, thats really hurts. ur lucky that i'm FAR here. if not...

here what i want to say, (IT HARSH, but its FACTS) accept it.

1>> r u now living in ur parents house? or it just ur dad's?
2>> the money u have, is it all yours?
3>> do u have FRIENDS???
4>> when are you going to LEARN??

dik, akak tau akak pn ade silap but akak xpnah m'aibkan adik.
kekayaan and ksenangan adik bkn milik adik, tp milik adik2 tiri adik. tolong sedar.
jgn nak kutuk orang, cermin diri tu.
at least kn dik, akak x batak jantan, and x jakun naik kete import.
ouh.. maybe adik xtau, ayah akak hanya bawak BMW, Mercedes and Volvo.
akak tak penah bangga dgn nama yang akak ada, akak b'syukur di lahirkan bertuah.
ape la ade pd nama if dada ni KOSONG dik? nama tu x kmane.. mcm kkayaan jgk. kaya tp bodoh, mcmane nk maintain kaya kn?
n dgr kate adik nk stop blaja kt sana sbb dpt tawaran lg bgus ( bgosla klau btol), kt tmpt bru tu nanti, bwk2la brubah and sedar diri ye?
paling penting, mulut tu jage, bg wangi sikit. muke cantik tp mulut busuk, x gune dik oi.
awak muda lg,so jgn la b'lagak dgn akak2 and abang2 yg ada skrg. jgn smpai ktorg benci.
semua org pn da mnyampah dgn sikap prasan bgos, prasan pandai adik tu.
u have to accept that u cant compare urself with us, ur NOBODY.
so mould a new character and attitude, a GOOD 1. and u'll be FINE.

INSYA'ALLAH~~


ikhlas....

its for you, FRIEND....

personal issues>>> DRAMAS!!!

here's the TRUTH, this is what i think about BEING a FRIEND..

"Friendship is always a sweet responsibilty, never an oppourtunity."
- Kahil Gibran

"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Walk beside me and be my friend."
- Albert Camus

"Strangers are just friends waiting to happen." – Steve

"I can trust my friends. These people force me to examine, encourage me to grow."
-Cher

"I can doubt my friends, but I can believe in our friendship."

"You are you and I am I,
You do your thing and I'll do mine,
and if in the end we meet up together,
it is beautiful."
-Boy Meets World

and this is what i'm expecting FRIENDS should be and should DO..

"Best friends are like diamonds, precious and rare
False friends are like leaves, found everywhere."
- Anoymous

"Everyone is a friend, until they prove otherwise."

"Treat people as if they were what they ought to be and you help them to become what they are capable of being."
-Goethe

i hope YOU (my friends) can truly and sincerely accept ME as ur FRIEND. and i have to say dat i agree with this, hope u will too..

"Love doesn't make the world go round, it makes the ride worthwhile." -F.P. Jones

"All our young lives we search for someone to love, someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope, all the while wondering if somewhere and somehow there is someone searching for us."
-The Wonder Years

"We laughed
until we had to cry.
We gave love,
right down to our last goodbye.
We were the best
we thought we'd ever be
Just you and me,
for just a moment...

"You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back."
-Barbara DeAngelis

last but not least......

"My wish upon this shooting star is that your heart be happy."
-Gilbert

"IF YOU TREAT YOUR FRIEND AS THEY SHOULD BE, THEY WILL BECOME ONE OF THE CROWD. IF YOU TREAT YOUR FRIEND AS THEY OUGHT TO BE TREATED, THEY WILL BECOME AN INDIVIDUAL."

... SUSPENS!!!! ...

another HECTIC day.. =(

i didn't get enough sleep last nyte, working on my individual video clip for Communication Skill.. thanks to Ratna,for being creative,being patiet and accompany me for the whOle nyte! LOVE U, Ratna chan!! and not to forget, thanks to KAK ROSE for the tips. =)

done the video around 5am, texting with my friend, KOTAK til he off to class. thanks to u too TAK. =)

went to class at 5.30pm which is 1 and half hour early. we have to burn our personal video and print out our resume, so thats why we kind of early.

in the class, i've waited for my other 8 group mates. but they're still not in the class even after 1hour the class has started!!! i waited for my group video shooting too, its with 1 of them. and around 9pm, the class almost done, then i get to know that they got problems. they save all their videos in a thumbdrive, try to burn it into cd. and..... a problems turn up! but at the end, we're fine.

MYRA, THANKS honey, for your hardwork. sorry to burden you with the editing and stuff. but u have to know, we appreciate it hun. we really do.

WE LOVE YOU MYRALICIOUS!!! THANX!!!

.. F.R.I.E.N.D.S ..

saya ada kawan, nama dia KOTAK.

dia baik dan dia comel.

semalam dia teman saya buat assignment sampai subuh.

terima kasih KOTAK.

ouhh.. TAK, thnx tau layan kepale biol ku nih.. thnx sbb rela kena buli ngn aku. ko x mara kn?? =D

hope kita kawan sampai bile2. =)

again, thanx KOTAK.. =)

.. LOVE SUCKS!! ..

okay.. like always, when i talk about love, its all about fighting, breaking up and hook up, AGAIN AND AGAIN.

told u what? i'm sick of it. i really do. it just, i need someone. i don't like to be alone.

and now i have my lovely RATNA, KAK ROSE, KAK NONA, MILA and ADA.

i love them. thanks for being a good listener. thanks for being there.

to you, i don't hate you. i hate myself. you're a good guy but i'm not the 1 and i think i need more than just a GOOD GUY. so, i hope this time, its for real. bye bye to US and hye to YOU. =)

.. scandal for LIFE??? ...

nahhhhh.. a friend.. a good friend of mine.

kutuk2.. maki2.. but then.. still friends.

well i guess he's a true friend.

kutukla aku puas2, buli laaa.... tak heran, da biase.

love u, always. nak charge???? boleh blah. taknak bayar.

ape2 pun, those who thinks you're a friend of mine, remember this.

i love you. it just, i'm loving myself more.

i never forget u, but sometimes i have no time to think of u.

but still, we're FRIENDS, and i always LOVE you!!!

... u r loser and u don't know what style is ...

who is the loser?? an EX-BESTFRIEND which now also known as VICTORIA BECKHAM wannabe. LOSER!!!

well, she's been my enemy for the past 7months i guess. why?? good question. because i put on my hijab (tudung) and i start having a good lifestyle. no more going out in the weekend, doing all the stupid stuffs (maksiat to be exact, i used to be a bitch, but not anymore), no more hanging out at night (overnight), no more wearing all the tight clothes (but sometimes i do wear it, but i know the limit). that some of it. she makes all my ex housemates turn their back on me, and made up bad stories about me. she even say i'm not a virgin?? BODOH. what a loser. i did confront her, but since she's a loser, so she just remain silence. but behind my back, SHE IS TOTALLY A BITCH. so thats something about her.

ouh.. the story. okay2. this term, her course joining my course for Communication Skill subject. so i have to see her ugly face every thursday night. but i'm fine with it, it just, i hate to see her ugly face. i'm not saying i'm pretty or what, but i'm better than her, in and out. SORRY LOSER

okay, so, last sunday we had the presentation day. i wear my red baju kurung and put on my blazer. i think i look good (macam peguam okay? lols). i arrived quite late, by that time all the front sit is full so i have to sit at the back. on my way up, i saw her and 2 other ex housemates, as i come across her sit, i put my bag down and sit. (i sat exactly a row behind her). i'm talking to ratna and suddenly i heard..

LOSER>> eiii.. apsal perempuan ni duduk belakang. aku tak suke la perempuan ni.

PRETTY LADYakaREBUNG>> **silence** i want to see what more she got

LOSER>> eiii.. tiba2 panas la kat belakang. benci betul!!!

**i stood up, took out all the books i got in my bags and starting walking behind the LOSER, at the same time the book is to be a sign that the row that i have sit is for my group** while walking..

PRETTY LADYakaREBUNG>> aihh..pagi2 ni aku malas layan BABI bercakap. now BABI ni dah pandai. memang nak kena ajar. bunyi lagi sekali, siaplah kau. aku tak ada mood nak dengar BABI bercakap.

**i look at ratna and said..**

PRETTY LADYakaREBUNG>> At, aku tak ingin duduk belakang dengan BABI yang dangkal, agak2 kau nampak tempat kosong kat depan, bagitahu aku ye?? duduk belakang memang panas, ahli neraka ramai ni, mana tak panas kan? (hamek ko!)

okay, why didn't i just go straight and meet her? if i do so, there will be a fight. i'm a hot tempered person. once i hit someone, i just can't stop. plus, if i did that, i'm just humiliating myself. so i'll just play the game. waiting for her to piss off and lay her finger on me, and then....... you will see.

so i manage to change my sit and sit in the front. i can hear she keep "sindir2" me. i just smile. coz i know thats all she got, she don't have the guts to say anything in front of my face. what a LOSER. lols.
guess what she wear? baju kurung modern which is too tight for her (baju pinjam agaknya. haha. aku kejam. so whattt???). and once said, orang seni je tahu seni, baru la stylo. MAK KO!!!! seems like kau tak tahu seni la since baju kau ketat, macam sarung nangka busuk. LOLS!!!!
ouh.. not to forget. i think she is really piss off right now coz i lose weight. i was like really slim. and she is DAMN PLUMPY. mwahahahaha..

kesian ko. dah la bodoh, hodoh plak. LOSER. BIG TIME LOSER!!!

hamik ko!!!

OOPSSSS!!!!

okay, this the other part of me. the angry 1. i'll say all the bad words and don't care what might happen next. get in a fight? my pleasure. look forward for it. i'm not the 1 u want to mess with. so beware. if i said i hate u, so BUZZ OFF!

that should be all, THANK YOU. =)
xoxoxoxo

.. EARTH HOUR and PRESENTATION FOR PUBLIC SPEAKING ...

earth hour!!! 28th March 2009. the earth day. did u guys contribute something???
i did!!! heheh
me and my housemates (kak Rose, Ratna, Ada, Mila), we switch off all the lights, then we stay outside the house. lols. ouh.. we did take some picture during the EARTH HOUR. cool!!!
here some of it! =)

pic 1>> me and kak rose pic 2>> ada ratna mila kak rose pic 3>> silly me pic 4>>me kak rose ratna

ouh.. and the next day, i got my public speaking day for my Communication Skill class. a month ago, our NYEH2 lecturer, MR. AZRUL SHAH @ MR. AZBOROI has given us 10 topics for the public speaking session. and i pick DO YOU THINK THAT ONE's CAREER DEPENDS ON HE/HER COMMUNICATION SKILL?, well i don't have to put my text in here, am i?? hehe

so its 29 of March, we should get started at 8.45am and ended at 6pm. but guess what?? we've been forced to go to our campus hall and sit there to hear a talk about bussiness. what the???? and we tayed there until 1.50pm!!! huh! i'm so sleepy because the night before that i sleep at 5am. huhu.. =(

then, at 2pm, the public speaking session is started. there's 200 students, and my turn is 121. arghhh!!!! i am damn exhausted!!! and mr. Azrul said that today, those from number 1 til 100 will only present. the rest, will be on next saturday. when i got the idea of heading back home, "to those who think about going back home, your marks will be zero.", i was like, "whattttttttt???!!!!!". in the end of it, i be the time keeper. huh! =(
i'm so exhausted, dissapointed (coz i didn't present today. damn!) yet, i'm still happy, cause all of us looking very2 nice, pretty and handsome. lols. but that just it....

pic 1>> me pic 2>> myra and me pic 3>> me and ratna

and in addition!!

owh... there's some more reasons.

at last...Afiq take his SPM result,what did he get?? NOT TELLING!!! it just not bad, but somehow it is quite disappointing. it's okay, he'll be fine.

and ABAH!!!! =P wo xiang ni, Abah. =) he will be out from the hospital around next week. Alhamdulillah...

Z.J, he accept my apology, and willing to be friends again. Thanks. =)
and J, stop calling me "si gendut" ha. or i'll kick your ***. lols. now i'm writing about u again. haha
silly u! J sien!

. . . MoMents . . .

weeee... happy!!! happy!!! happy!!!!

huhu.. kind of tired, yet still very happy.

what did i have today??
1>> Cardiorespirastory presentation
2>> Japanese language test
3>> Musculoskeletal test

fiuhhhhh... =P

okay, 1st, the presentation is on 8.30am, guess what?? i woke up at 8.15am!!!!! waaaa!!!!!
so.. wash my face, brush my teeth, change the **tutttt** and wear proper clothes for the class. lols!!
and it went well, i present the task with my beloved Ratna (lessy partner). it just a small part, Ratna did a tiny mistake, but over all, it is great. =)

2nd, i didn't really study Japanese (unless the words or statement that i can use to tease the Japanese student. =p). so.. the test is hard.. i can't remember Katagana characters, but..... Ajizu Sensei and Ratna help me, a lots! heheh.. so, i manage to answer it. *wink*

3rd.. haa... Japanese test on 5pm, and ended on 6.50pm. up next is my Musculoskeletal test, its on 7pm. crazy huh?? haha!!
(macam nak mati wo!!!)
ha, yang ni, nasib baik senang, if notttttt... balik rumah, nangis!!!. Thank God, for making it easy for me. =)

so.. i am happy! yieeeeehaaa!!!!!

.. love >> past ...

okay.. i'm missing sum1. i do. i feel guilty to him. but i think he'll b fine. he always will. he's a fighter. aren't u Z.J???

i can't really remember the exact date we're texting each other. huhu. could b '04, '05 or '06 new year eve. got to know him from... NOT TELLING

we're friends, he's in Sabah while me in Johore. we're doing good. he's fun to talk to. great sense of humor.. (miss that moment..) we used to talk on the phone, late at night.he likes Beckham (he even have his poster on the wall in his room>> kind of gay isn't it?. then.. we get hooked up. lols. crazy huh? we don't even really know each other very well. but.. puppy love. u can say that. i know where he went for school, his family members, his passion in basketball n dancing.and, i'm fine with it. it just, i need company and i don't care whoever he is as long as he care about me. SILLY ME!! =)

well.. we dont really contacting each other, busy with school and stuff. but i remember, we always talked to each other almost every weekend. =) i did text him, but he's not always available. i miss him.. really..

u know, he always call me SI GENDUT, SI BOROI n stuff coz he thinks i'm too short n fat. haha. funny. its okay tho since we didn't know each other that well. he's a basketball player for Sabah, so i adore him a lot . when he's sulking, i always sing a song for him. he like it. stickwitu. haha. n some other songs.

ha.. i always asked him to sing a song for me too. guess what he sang? u're going to be shock. lols
he sang ABCs, 123, and Negaraku for me. haha!! yeah.. he's not romantic at all. but still, at that time, i'm in love with him (i guess) coz he makes me happy.. n we did sang a song together, but i don't remember what song is it, owh.. its by Westlife. sorry. SILLY US!! lols

ther's 1 time, he went to Labuan, he called me for hours. he went gambling. haha. silly him. he said he wears something which to me its a gay outfit. hehe. i don't remember if i ever told him that before. lols. when he's on the bus, he did let me talk to his sis (dessy). then he let me hear his favourite song (is it? i mean, is it ur favourite song? can't really remember that. huhu), owh. its MIRAEI. n he did promise me that 1 day he going to come n find me. sweet.. isn't he?

and told u what Z.J, i've learnt Japanese. don't b jealous ha u silly! c(=

and we did study together, yeah.. through calls. haha! i remember this 1, he don't know what 'perigi mencari timba' means. GOSH!! its like 3 or 4 months before SPM. haha.

'kutuk' each other so bad since i'm zero when it turn to add math. haha.

then... i d k.. i forgot. everything fall into pieces.. there's 1 time, ther's an eartquake somewhere in Indonesia. it affect his place. i cant reach him, i only get to talk to his dad. n thats it. i d k anything anymore.

but after SPM, we did contacting each other again. he blame me for not contacting him. its on and off. i mean, sometimes he's there, but sometimes, he's not. so i started seeing another guy here. n totally forgot him.

n last month, he got my yahoo messenger id, and he's online!! he never did tho. haha. i'm kind of shock. afraid too. yeah, he asking me back. he said he's here for me and stuff. but he don't know that i've moved on. so i made up a story, to hurt him. to make him stop. and i made it!

all i can say now, i'm sorry sayang. i did love u. but u deserve better. be good. i'll always here, praying for u, okay?

again, i'm sorry Z.J.. i really do.

Koo Boon Hou aka Xiao Bao...

handsome isn't he? he's no here anymore.. May God bless him. rest in peace my dear..

he's my highscool classmate, since form 4 til form 5... okay, i have a crush on him. he's really cute..

i used to;

REBUNG>> morning xiao bao!!! ni hen suai oh. (u'r handsome), like always.. =)
Xiao Bao>> morning.. ** blushing**, xie xie ni.. (thank you.)

Ang Li Yun, my classmate, drop a comment on my friendster page. i suddenly remember Xiao Bao. u know, chinese are very close to each other. whenever i think about 1 of my chinese classmate, i'll end up remember all of them.. =) i really2 miss them..


but Xiao Bao, i remember him the most.. his smile... his voices.. his blushing cheeks. the way he teased me. i just miss him. in fact, i love him. yeah.. love him.... =(

he's a prefect, he sit in front of me in the class. he's not talkative, very quiet 1. but he always talk to me (cause i make him to. =) ). i always push my table towards his chair, so whenever he need to move or get up from his chair, he'd say...

>> REBUNG.. ni haaaaa!!! aihhhh.. ni hen fei! (Rebung.. you haaa..... aihhh.. you're so fat!)

and then we laughed.

haha.. i did that everyday.. everyday.. i miss you. i really do.
he always help me in my Modern and Add Math exercises and i help him in his Malay and English exercises..

then we had SPM, holiday, work..... and the result came out.

i went to school, i want to meet him (and of course to take my result.). he's not there. i asked my other chinese classmates, they said that xiao bao is sick. but i know that he got 9 A's in the exam. yeah.. he's handsome and brilliant. that's why i like him a lot.

the end of March '07, i heard that he's taking form 6 in a Boys school in JB. and at the same time, going back and forth from JB to Singapore to do his chemotherapy... he had a brain tumor.
shocking.. really shocking.. =(

he did came to my house on Hari Raya, he don't look like he is sick. he talks a lots. i just.. shock. u know? i'm sad...

April 'o7, i did met him several times, in the mall. he's with his form 6 classmate. i cant go n meet him since i'm working... i only look at him. he seems... handsome. like always. and healthy.

July' 07.. i'm in Unisel, Shah Alam... since i saw him at the mall few months back, i never thought that something bad is going to happen to him.

after a month in Unisel, i got a message in my friendster account, from Li Yun. she asked me to get back to JB, to pay my last respect to Xiao Bao.

>>> he's dead???? no. he cant be. he cant be!!!! <<<

but he is.. he's gone.. =,( Xiao bao...

now. he's no longer around.. all that i got left is, the memories.. i miss him a lot. i love him too.

last nyte i had a dream, about him... he came to my house, Hari Raya.. with Siang Choon and Fook Thai. from my house, we're heading to another friend's house. Fook Thai is driving, Siang Choon sit next to him. me? at the back.. with Xiao Bao.....

we talked... we laughed... and he said something.. he said he loves me. haha.. yeah,it's silly. maybe i think about him a lot. but i don't care. i get the chance to meet him. that's what important!

Xiao Bao, i really do miss you.. u will always be in my heart. always....

... Dr. Soma Kumar Samy ...

owkay.. he's a doctor. very nice 1. met him like an hour ago.
went to his clinic UMRA CLINIC , seksyen 13, Shah Alam.

Ratna, caught fever. his brother, Abang An, fetch us and bring us to this Dr. clinic..
Dr. SS Kumar, his name. very nice person. i mean, ratna got fever, he do the ascultation, and we said (me and ratna) said we know how to do it since we're studying in Physiotherapy. and he is being so nice. he talks about current medical issues and give us lots of advise. and also testing our knowledge in this field.

Dr.>> u did learn about lymphatic system aren't u??
Ratna>> err.. yeahhhh.. **staring at me**
REBUNG>> owhhh.. of course. **Damn it! i did learn about it, i think.. its... errrr... ermmm**
Dr.>> so other than axillary (near to the armpit area.. haha), which part of the body have the important lymph nodes?? yvonne? (his nurse>>a trainee from masterskill)
Yvonne>> erm.. i don't know, Dr. (i wonder how come she didn't know that? she's in the nursing field!!! goshhh!!!)
Dr.>> its ok. Ratna??
Ratna>> errr... **keep staring at me**
Dr.>> **he looked at me(he dont know my name..)**
REBUNG>> owh.. its in this area. ** showing the part of my body, the inguinal(lower limbs), and also the neck and head..... (okay, i think this is the the answer, please say its right!!!!)
Dr.>> good, so u know. very good. so yvonne, the lymph nodes is bla3, yada3....

well in fact i feel proud of myself. haha! i really did learn. haha! i'm not that stupid. yes3!!!!!

>>>>> i want to study harder. it is really fun when u get to know and learn new things. and its a satisfaction when others don't have as much as u have, i mean the knowledge. =)

RM80, Ratna's medicine... **i don't want to get sick anymore. huhu**

i ask for his (the Dr.) name card, so, that's how i get to know his name. hehe

i text him, and it is very sweet of him..

>> hi , REBUNG. nice to meet u too, keep in touch, call/sms anytime.

sweet isn't he? xoxoxoxoxoxo

. . . Happy.. Sad.. wut da???? . . .

i'm not in a good mood.. just cried over my guy.

huh.. we'r fighting like every day. it sucks. i love him. i really do. it just.......
i don't know...

yesterday, i should go out with my housemates, Ratna, Kak Rose n her sis, Kak Ita. We're planning to go to Shah Alam, for bowling, games and karaoke. i barely can't make it, cause i usually spent my weekend with my guy. but this week, he went to Sekinchan <<-- did i spell it right? whatever.. to his highschool friend's wedding. i want to go with him, but he not letting me to follow. don't know why... okay, i know why. he want to spend the day with his friends. by bringing me, i'm such a burden, plus, he spend the night there. where should i sleep pulak?? huhu. so... i'm fine with it. i came up with another plan which is "berfoye-foye" with my housemates. haha!!

that beautiful Sunday morning, around 8a.m, my guy called me. telling me he already come back from Sekinchan. i was like... "whattttt???". he said he's bored and want to go home. then I say okay. i tell him that i'm going out with my housemates cause i already promise them (n case he 'ngade2' to ask me to go out with him laaa). and he said, "ok, mak called tadi, mak suruh balik and bawa Siti jalan-jalan ke K.L". i'm glad to hear that. =)
he went back home. around an hour, he text me. he asked, "awak nak pergi mana tadi? nak pergi K.L tak? temankan Siti (her youngest sis, 16years old), saya bawa Naim sekali (his bro, same age with me). awak ajak kawan2 awak sekali, follow saya dari belakang k?" i was like... "err, orang tanya diaorang dulu k?" and............................ my friends agree. Ratna, Kak Rose, and Kak Ita in 1 car. me, my guy, Naim and Siti in my guy's car.

>>>>>okay, this is my 1st time meeting my guy's family members. takutttt.. ya rabbbbb... huhu

so.. i spent the weekend with my guy jugak... well actually, we'r just get back together, again... n now he bring me to meet his siblings. i'm afraid. a little excited too. n feel like, "i think he ready to have commitment thats y he brings me to meet them".. that is wats on my mind..
it went well, in the car, i only asked the basic questions to her sis (like, belajar apa, pmr dapat apa?, and etc) it went well laaa..

we went to midvalley, guess what the very 1st question Siti asked me? huhu.. "tak saket ke kaki akak pakai high heels??" ceit. i'm trying to look nice. huhu. maybe i over doing it. too late to change my outfit. i just,"tak lah, akak dah biasa.. =)". i found that she love novels as much as i do. love english songs. and we had this girls conversations (u know, bf, crush,enemies n etc). it went pretty smooth. i try my best not to tell her that i'm his brother gf's, i want her to know it from his brother. but i think she knew it already, she said about the videos that she watched in her brother's laptop. "video tu untuk *REBUNG*, akak la tu ea? tapi dalam video tu, perempuannya macam bukan melayu, and tak pakai tudung". DUSH!!!! it is me pOWn!! huhu. i was like, "err.. a'ah la tuh. akak da start pakai tudung n blablabla.." haha. end of discussion.

we went back home around 8pm,ha.. my other housemates head back home around 6pm, they leave me with my guys siblings alone. huhu... ='(
he sent me home 1st, then he head back home. not so long after that, he call me, "saya tumpangkan Siti kat rumah awak jap, kereta rosak.". so i just pick the girl up. sambung mengumpat with her (she's quite fun tho). and this time, i asked about his brother. she talked about her bro's very 1st gf, she's a dentist. thats the only gf of his brother that she know. (yeah.. i'm the 2nd and yes, i hate the 1st 1. because she's the 1st). okay, cut it off.

around 10.30pm, he called me, to fetch her sis. their father came to pick them since the car is.... i don't know what happen to the car.. okay, this is what i understand from what he said, (i'm zero when it come to cars k? shut up! huhu). there's 2 tyres ( the back), there's a rode that holds them together, and the rode..................... break into 2. yeah.. its break. and he blame me!!!

"siapa lah yang duduk belakang tadi, berat betulllllll....", ceit punye bf!
so. thats what happen on sunday, march 15.......

What's The Value????

salam…… hOla… =)

I really blank.. i mean.. i don't really have something to type. haha..

i do have blogs, but in some other site. I'll paste some of it here.. i like those, i miss the moment i wrote it. REALLY....

this post.. read it. sit and think. this is what I have to say about TRUE FRIENDS....

I'm a GOLD that fears no FIRE

waahhhhh.... it hv been a long tym since i actively jOining my$%#@^. huhu.

my status is i m damn bOred being arOund lOser n pOser "i used to be 1, n it feel suck, badmOuth, backstabbed my 'friends'. i'm such a loser!" nOw i'm TRYING TO B REAL!!!!!

well.... i dunno exactly what your perception towards me. to those who've been hurt, i'm sorry, never mean it (to some, yes, i meant it cuz sumhOw u deserved it) haha.

i'm trying to b nice, but i'm just a human, i'm sorry... i loves all my frens. i'm sorry.. i cant b a good fren coz it is almost impossible to be 1. i'm not a loser.... but when being around lOsers, u'll b 1.. (get what i mean??) mOral.... b frens with evrybOdy n be only gOod to "REAL FRENS!!" =)

what make me post this shit??? my communication skill class.... it taught me a lot abOut life. so i'm getting a real life.... nO more being loser, poser or whatsoever....

just being ' SI REBUNG '.. will do my best.

i POSTED it as a bulletin, never thought that some will read n post it back. geee!! thanks!

here’s the response..

are we loser?? are we not??

fans,,

how wud yuu described a demmly true fren??

lets talk….

do we need to stand beside her for 1 and half yer??

do we need to share all da tears and epines togeter??

do we need to pretend and just being hypocrite??

but at da end of it..

did we being stabbed??

did we being hurt??

did we being.. betrayed??

shud we regret all da memories??

shud we sent da fren away??

and da only we can do..

stay calm even we badly in pain….

stay wit da way we are..

stay wit da real true fren….

bcos….

only frens noe how frens act like…only frens noe wut do’s and wut dont”s..

to yuu,,

i sent back ur knife so yuu can use it again….

again wit ur another fren….

true frens doesnt hav to change to be around true frens….

true frens.. are da way they are from da moment they met..

so take it,love it and learn from it..

so yuu will neva lost ur true fren….

and diz is wat my hearts n mind said…

how can u say, “i’m ur true friend”?? you’re the 1 whO say it, or your friends will say so??

dizcussiOn….

2b a TRUE frens, it is nOt abOut how lOng we knew each other… u might be friends with sOmeone over what? let say 10 years, is she or he is ur true frens?? they’re can be and they can be nOt. but i strOngly say, it is NOT. it is nOt abOut TIME.

to be a TRUE frens is 2b 2geta.. in evry ups n dOwns…. i really mean it. UPS n DOWNS ok? Am i a TRUE friend? i admit, i’m NOT. i’m a gOod listener, a gOod adviser. I’ve been through a lots. I did falls for millions of time. I can't always cry over my friends prOblems… i did cry for my friends, but nOt all the times… and i never laugh over my frens sadness or pain.. its mean, isn't it? what I’m trying tO say is, its hard to be wit your frens in every he/her UPS n DOWNS… but i tried and will always try to be with my friends…

2b a TRUE frens, do we need to pretend and just being hypocrite?? we don't but when your ‘TRUE’ frens is a pretender and hypocrites, you’ll simply be 1. get it?? no offense but it will happen.

i say it, cuz i’v been arOund them n i’v been 1,before. i’m nOt d only 1, some of them also jOined d league. me, i’v learnt 2 badmouth nOt only my true frens, but also thOse whO i dun even nOe. stupid am i? anOtha frens, frOm an innOcent gal, dOwn 2earth, piOUs, has turned 2 some1 new, far away frOm who she really is.

i’m getting myself back by avOiding them… especially her.. why am i avOiding herTHEM?? cuz she seem like she's still live in stupidity (is there any term suits her well?) she refused to admit this prObs sumhOw cOmes frOm her acts n dun want 2 change her immatured mind n thats cOmpletely not my faults. i’m trying 2b gOod n she just cant accept it. so.. OFF U GO my dear.

n i can say dat..

i’v been stabbed, i’v been hurt, i’v been betrayed, i did regret all da memories, n i did sent SOME of my TRUE frens away.

all i do now is b a better person. live my life to the max. be real.. gain a good self value.. n study harder.

but to all my frens, again, i’m not a good fren, but i’m still your frens… i’ve changed. i use to be a bitch, a loser, a poser, i admit dat. but my “YOUNG&STUPID” session has cOme to the end, so i’ve changed myself. i have to be a good person for me before being a good fren for u..

n if u said " true frens doesnt hav to change to be around true frens…. true frens are da way they are from da moment they met”, i’m sorry… thers nO such things. peoples change, right? whether to a better person or the other way arOund.

again, TRUE frens is being 2geta in our ups n downs, right? sit dOwn n think, do u think u’r a TRUE or are you even a GOOD frens???

to you my dear….

i sent back ur WORDS so u can eat it..

which u always used to your frens….

n a little advise, u are no longer a kid, i give u chance to ask me anything n etc, but u said nothing. i’v explained evrything n hope evrything went good but u seem like u cant or dOnt want 2let gO.

all i cn say now is, mind ur own biz, cuz i wil only do my own thing… n GROW UP. stop bringing otha frens in diz issue, it is btween US. so let it b dat way. and my dear, i’m not d only 1 whO dislike u, there's tOns of them out there, arOund u. they jz dislike u, not hated u….. yet. so u just gO change yourself. b a REAL GOOD person n stOp putting ur mistakes on ur frens shOulder. don't act clever, u close to it but your not there yet. and you know what, keep this in your mind, this is btween u and me. i’m not going too stand that low arOund you anymore cuz i’m much more better than u. much2 more..=D

and not forgetting, THANX, i have took it, loved it and COMPLETELY learnt from it..

to be nOt just a gOOd FREN, but also a GOOD n BETTER person. ALHAMDULILLAH...

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salam....

thanks to those who actually ARRIVED in my page.

To those who know me already, u have it. i mean, u might know what I'm shitting in here. c(=

To those who don't know me, u can try. I'm complicated though. But you'll be just fine.
After all, I'm writing not biting. Not even kicking.


and not to forget, u can call me REBUNG. OK, I know u wondering why... let just say, I'm kinda rebung. haha
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