Michael

lawi told me.. some says that usually those who have 'MICHAEL' as their 1st, middle or last name is "somebody". like michael shumacher, michael jordan, michael jackson....

ok.. i'm carried away.. i muz say. suddenly all peoples admitting that they loves MJ so much. frankly speaking, i'm not a big fan of him. but i have to say i know almost everything he's been thru, obviously bcoz its on PAPER, in the internet. u know? since he is somebody right?

pedophilia.. gay.. plastic surgeries.. neverland.. bancruptcy.. prince michael I, paris, blanket.. and etc..

since i'm not a fan of him, so i dont really care about all that. really. his life. so what?

but june 25, i must say i'm shocked. he's gone. well i'm waiting "THIS IS IT" concert. i want to c him. is he stil great? is he stil got da move? u know.. i want to really watch MICHAEL JACKSON.
but.. he's gone. May GOD bless him.

it make me watch 1 of his video, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I NEVER WATCH IT !! i cried. YES,,, i cry like watching 1litre of tears. dammit! sob3

few days passes.. still, wenever he's story on the news, i suddenly cry. he is somebody. i look for his biography and stuff. i read all the story. and this is wat i have to say.


at least the past 10years, he's never happy. HE's a grown up man. but his heart, mind.. he is still a kid. yes, he is not normal. ARE WE NORMAL EITHER??? he's growing up in front of thousands eyes since he was 5. can u imagine that? he barely know wat NORMAL is. i'm sure, all his life, he want to make other people happy. and here, i say, HE IS NOT A PEDOPHILE. he loves kids, i mean LOVE=CARE. y? becoz dun get the chance to really been loves and care by a real ADULT! he been in this field (entertaiment) coz he want to change his family life. he did it.

somehow i feel like, everybody that close to him, that he trust, took advantage on his kindness. really. too much too say bcoz i got to know who MICHAEL JACKSON is only after he's gone.

yeah.. shame on me..

n still, i'm crying.. i d k y. =(

i think i love him.

to MJ>> u will owez b in our heart, u've change the world. thats what u want, n u have to know that u've made it. May GOD bless your soul. and now, all this people, wil totally leave u alone. and they will owez remember u and all ur songs.. I LOVE YOU.

... which 1 the best???? ...

WONDER GIRLS


korean girl and boy trying to tell me dance

p/s >> check this out too!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G1mAT6vwPxg&feature=PlayList&p=718B9B63C4945AF9&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=6

.. love >> past ...

okay.. i'm missing sum1. i do. i feel guilty to him. but i think he'll b fine. he always will. he's a fighter. aren't u Z.J???

i can't really remember the exact date we're texting each other. huhu. could b '04, '05 or '06 new year eve. got to know him from... NOT TELLING

we're friends, he's in Sabah while me in Johore. we're doing good. he's fun to talk to. great sense of humor.. (miss that moment..) we used to talk on the phone, late at night.he likes Beckham (he even have his poster on the wall in his room>> kind of gay isn't it?. then.. we get hooked up. lols. crazy huh? we don't even really know each other very well. but.. puppy love. u can say that. i know where he went for school, his family members, his passion in basketball n dancing.and, i'm fine with it. it just, i need company and i don't care whoever he is as long as he care about me. SILLY ME!! =)

well.. we dont really contacting each other, busy with school and stuff. but i remember, we always talked to each other almost every weekend. =) i did text him, but he's not always available. i miss him.. really..

u know, he always call me SI GENDUT, SI BOROI n stuff coz he thinks i'm too short n fat. haha. funny. its okay tho since we didn't know each other that well. he's a basketball player for Sabah, so i adore him a lot . when he's sulking, i always sing a song for him. he like it. stickwitu. haha. n some other songs.

ha.. i always asked him to sing a song for me too. guess what he sang? u're going to be shock. lols
he sang ABCs, 123, and Negaraku for me. haha!! yeah.. he's not romantic at all. but still, at that time, i'm in love with him (i guess) coz he makes me happy.. n we did sang a song together, but i don't remember what song is it, owh.. its by Westlife. sorry. SILLY US!! lols

ther's 1 time, he went to Labuan, he called me for hours. he went gambling. haha. silly him. he said he wears something which to me its a gay outfit. hehe. i don't remember if i ever told him that before. lols. when he's on the bus, he did let me talk to his sis (dessy). then he let me hear his favourite song (is it? i mean, is it ur favourite song? can't really remember that. huhu), owh. its MIRAEI. n he did promise me that 1 day he going to come n find me. sweet.. isn't he?

and told u what Z.J, i've learnt Japanese. don't b jealous ha u silly! c(=

and we did study together, yeah.. through calls. haha! i remember this 1, he don't know what 'perigi mencari timba' means. GOSH!! its like 3 or 4 months before SPM. haha.

'kutuk' each other so bad since i'm zero when it turn to add math. haha.

then... i d k.. i forgot. everything fall into pieces.. there's 1 time, ther's an eartquake somewhere in Indonesia. it affect his place. i cant reach him, i only get to talk to his dad. n thats it. i d k anything anymore.

but after SPM, we did contacting each other again. he blame me for not contacting him. its on and off. i mean, sometimes he's there, but sometimes, he's not. so i started seeing another guy here. n totally forgot him.

n last month, he got my yahoo messenger id, and he's online!! he never did tho. haha. i'm kind of shock. afraid too. yeah, he asking me back. he said he's here for me and stuff. but he don't know that i've moved on. so i made up a story, to hurt him. to make him stop. and i made it!

all i can say now, i'm sorry sayang. i did love u. but u deserve better. be good. i'll always here, praying for u, okay?

again, i'm sorry Z.J.. i really do.

Koo Boon Hou aka Xiao Bao...

handsome isn't he? he's no here anymore.. May God bless him. rest in peace my dear..

he's my highscool classmate, since form 4 til form 5... okay, i have a crush on him. he's really cute..

i used to;

REBUNG>> morning xiao bao!!! ni hen suai oh. (u'r handsome), like always.. =)
Xiao Bao>> morning.. ** blushing**, xie xie ni.. (thank you.)

Ang Li Yun, my classmate, drop a comment on my friendster page. i suddenly remember Xiao Bao. u know, chinese are very close to each other. whenever i think about 1 of my chinese classmate, i'll end up remember all of them.. =) i really2 miss them..


but Xiao Bao, i remember him the most.. his smile... his voices.. his blushing cheeks. the way he teased me. i just miss him. in fact, i love him. yeah.. love him.... =(

he's a prefect, he sit in front of me in the class. he's not talkative, very quiet 1. but he always talk to me (cause i make him to. =) ). i always push my table towards his chair, so whenever he need to move or get up from his chair, he'd say...

>> REBUNG.. ni haaaaa!!! aihhhh.. ni hen fei! (Rebung.. you haaa..... aihhh.. you're so fat!)

and then we laughed.

haha.. i did that everyday.. everyday.. i miss you. i really do.
he always help me in my Modern and Add Math exercises and i help him in his Malay and English exercises..

then we had SPM, holiday, work..... and the result came out.

i went to school, i want to meet him (and of course to take my result.). he's not there. i asked my other chinese classmates, they said that xiao bao is sick. but i know that he got 9 A's in the exam. yeah.. he's handsome and brilliant. that's why i like him a lot.

the end of March '07, i heard that he's taking form 6 in a Boys school in JB. and at the same time, going back and forth from JB to Singapore to do his chemotherapy... he had a brain tumor.
shocking.. really shocking.. =(

he did came to my house on Hari Raya, he don't look like he is sick. he talks a lots. i just.. shock. u know? i'm sad...

April 'o7, i did met him several times, in the mall. he's with his form 6 classmate. i cant go n meet him since i'm working... i only look at him. he seems... handsome. like always. and healthy.

July' 07.. i'm in Unisel, Shah Alam... since i saw him at the mall few months back, i never thought that something bad is going to happen to him.

after a month in Unisel, i got a message in my friendster account, from Li Yun. she asked me to get back to JB, to pay my last respect to Xiao Bao.

>>> he's dead???? no. he cant be. he cant be!!!! <<<

but he is.. he's gone.. =,( Xiao bao...

now. he's no longer around.. all that i got left is, the memories.. i miss him a lot. i love him too.

last nyte i had a dream, about him... he came to my house, Hari Raya.. with Siang Choon and Fook Thai. from my house, we're heading to another friend's house. Fook Thai is driving, Siang Choon sit next to him. me? at the back.. with Xiao Bao.....

we talked... we laughed... and he said something.. he said he loves me. haha.. yeah,it's silly. maybe i think about him a lot. but i don't care. i get the chance to meet him. that's what important!

Xiao Bao, i really do miss you.. u will always be in my heart. always....