WHEN YOU THOUGHT I WASN"T LOOKING~~~

When you thought I wasn't looking
I saw you hang my 1st painting on the refrigerator,
and I immediately wanted to paint another one.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I saw you feed a stray cat,
and I learned that it was good to be kind to animals.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I saw you make my favorite cake for me,
and I learned that the little things can be the special things in life.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I heard you say a prayers,
and I knew there is a GOD I could always talk to,
and I learned to trust in HIM.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I saw you make a meal and take it to a friend who was sick,
and I learned that we all have to help to take care of each other.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I saw you take care of our house and everyone in it,
and I learned we have to take care of what we are given.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I saw how you handled your responsibilities,
even when you didn't feel good,
and I learned that I would have to be responsible when I grow up.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I saw tears come from your eyes,
and I learned that sometimes things hurt,
but it's alright to cry.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I saw that you cared,
and I wanted to be everything that I could be.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I learned most of life's lessons that I need to know
to be a good and productive person when i grow up.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I looked at you and wanted to say,
"THANKS FOR ALL THE THINGS I SAW WHEN YOU THOUGHT I WASN'T LOOKING."

january..

salam....

didnt BLOG 4 a longgggggggg time. huhu

wat cn i say.. busyyyyy~~~

with practical...some stupid personal probs...n health probs.

ow...i suffered from dengue the end of january.
been warded, almost die.. yet here i m. ;) ALHAMDULILLAH~~

**our late Sultan passed away...
**realised that i hv to WORK harder~~

u know...i'm getting serious in this PHYSIOTHERAPY thingy..imma go for IT!

Michael

lawi told me.. some says that usually those who have 'MICHAEL' as their 1st, middle or last name is "somebody". like michael shumacher, michael jordan, michael jackson....

ok.. i'm carried away.. i muz say. suddenly all peoples admitting that they loves MJ so much. frankly speaking, i'm not a big fan of him. but i have to say i know almost everything he's been thru, obviously bcoz its on PAPER, in the internet. u know? since he is somebody right?

pedophilia.. gay.. plastic surgeries.. neverland.. bancruptcy.. prince michael I, paris, blanket.. and etc..

since i'm not a fan of him, so i dont really care about all that. really. his life. so what?

but june 25, i must say i'm shocked. he's gone. well i'm waiting "THIS IS IT" concert. i want to c him. is he stil great? is he stil got da move? u know.. i want to really watch MICHAEL JACKSON.
but.. he's gone. May GOD bless him.

it make me watch 1 of his video, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I NEVER WATCH IT !! i cried. YES,,, i cry like watching 1litre of tears. dammit! sob3

few days passes.. still, wenever he's story on the news, i suddenly cry. he is somebody. i look for his biography and stuff. i read all the story. and this is wat i have to say.


at least the past 10years, he's never happy. HE's a grown up man. but his heart, mind.. he is still a kid. yes, he is not normal. ARE WE NORMAL EITHER??? he's growing up in front of thousands eyes since he was 5. can u imagine that? he barely know wat NORMAL is. i'm sure, all his life, he want to make other people happy. and here, i say, HE IS NOT A PEDOPHILE. he loves kids, i mean LOVE=CARE. y? becoz dun get the chance to really been loves and care by a real ADULT! he been in this field (entertaiment) coz he want to change his family life. he did it.

somehow i feel like, everybody that close to him, that he trust, took advantage on his kindness. really. too much too say bcoz i got to know who MICHAEL JACKSON is only after he's gone.

yeah.. shame on me..

n still, i'm crying.. i d k y. =(

i think i love him.

to MJ>> u will owez b in our heart, u've change the world. thats what u want, n u have to know that u've made it. May GOD bless your soul. and now, all this people, wil totally leave u alone. and they will owez remember u and all ur songs.. I LOVE YOU.

ABDI

makin kita tercari-cari diri
makin kita kenal dengan budi pekerti
yang mudah sangat tergelincir jadi abdi.

ada sape2 faham???

tonight i feel very2 sad.. very2.
rase useless. alone.
ntahla... everything seems..... MESSED UP.
i dont know why.

THEY hate me. LOATH, dats d word.
but THEY r all i HAVE.
without them, i rather die.
without them, i cant find the meaning of LIFE.
but now they turning their back. refuse to let me explain wats going on.

what shud i DO now?
what shud i SAY?
what shud i think of?
where shud i head to?

too many questions... but

THERE IS NO ANSWER..

and the quotes.. it means.

"kalau nak kenal Allah, kau kenal la kekasihnya yakni Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. kalau kau nak kenal Nabi Muhammad, kau kenal la diri kau.."

sebab ape bile kita kenal diri kita sbenarnya..
kita kenal ape itu baik dan ape itu jahat..

fitrah manusia bukan utk buat jahat tapi sentiasa berlaku baik..

so kalau fitrah manusia tu baik.. maka Nabi itu manusia yang terbaik..
kalau Nabi itu manusia yang terbaik.. maka yang menciptanya adalah YANG MAHA TERBAIK..

so kite perlu ada and kenal budi pekerti.
"tergelincir la jadi abdi", sebab kite ni hambaNYA..

now i feel a lil relief... i wish i can sleep now n not having bad dreams, AGAIN.

aminnn...

... SURVIVING ...

what a slow and bOring day..

woke up at 10a.m. didn't go for the public speaking class (tomorrow i will...)
didn't pass up my Japanese assignments (next week i will...)
didn't go out, didn't eat (yet).. its its too hot in the afternoon and now its raining(cats and dogs just now).. huh. BORED...

ouh.. thanks to u for CELA, it means a lot.

CELA

rabak mataku, pena menari-nari,
tinta berdarah, kata membara-bara,
masanya ku bernafas kini terakhir kali,
puas sudahku sesak dalam dunia sempit...

dulu tersungkur, kini berdiri,kau bermain api,

kini ku bakari..
dulu menunduk, kini ku celik, kau bermain api..

engkau mahu sempurna, engkau jadi sempurna
biar aku bahagia dengan celaku,
engkau mahu malaikat turun dari kayangan
biar aku bahagia dengan celaku..

mengapa tidak engkau cermin saja dirimu yang sempurna mempesona?
ku bahagia dengan cela
mengapa tidak kau bercinta saja dengan dirimu yang sempurna mempesona
ku bahagia dengan cela...

SIAPA YANG MAMPU MENCAPAI MAHUMU BILAMANA KAU JUGA SEORANG MANUSIA...

Favourite Quotes... so far. lols.. =P

Keep your eyes on the stars and your feet on the ground.
-Theodore Roosevelt-

Have a heart that never hardens, and a temper that never tires, and a touch that never hurts.
-Charles Dickens-

All glory comes from daring to begin.
-William Shakespeare-

If you would be loved, love and be lovable.
-Benjamin Franklin-

If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes.
-St. Clement of Alexandra-

Without inspiration the best powers of the mind remain dormant, they is a fuel in us which needs to be ignited with sparks.
-Johann Gottfried Von Herder-

Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall.
-Confucius-

By associating with wise people you will become wise yourself.
-Menander-

Our life's a stage, a comedy: either learn to play and take it lightly, or bear its troubles patiently.
-Palladas-

As I grow to understand life less and less, I learn to love it more and more.
-Jules Renard-

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
-Benjamin Franklin-

.. siblings.. HEART THEM ALL...

my big sis.. yet, she's lil shorter than me, and people keep saying that i'm the big sis!!!


















Afiq.... Twin1.... Twin2....



Putri, REBUNG, Ayap.



>>>>>REALLY MISS THEM!!!<<<<<

... Abah&Afiq ...

afiq is my brother, he's 18. called him just now, asking for his SPM result..

>> aku tak ambil lagi laaa... budak2 cuti kannnn... next week laaa.. >>

he quit his job already.. since 15 of March. (got to know about it, 2hour ago...)
he ask me to get back to JB a.s.a.p....

hari2 aku jenguk Abah. dia dah okay. dah boleh makan sikit2. tapi Abah muntah2. kau balik lah. semalam luka operation Abah terbuka, banyak darah keluar. ntah macamana la doctor jaga abah.
ni kembar (i have twin brothers) buat hal, kau balik lah. pening kepala aku nak handle rumah.

hmmhh, i have a big sis tho. but she's too busy with her job. my mom is busy taking care of my dad in the hospital. and my other siblings, Afiq have to handle them. i got another 2bro's(the twin, 17), a lil sis(14) and a lil bro(13)... too hard for him to handle ryte? the housechores.. everything.


FIQ... i'll be back as soon as i've done my final exam this end of April. just hold on.
GOD.. please lighten the burden a little bit. show me the best way to go. keep me in track.
REBUNG.. study! study!! study!!!