BEGGAR?? i am,INDEED...

" Don't beg me coz you're not a BEGGAR~ "

i dont do this begging thing, not that ur eyes cn see. but deep in my heart, and i suppose evry1 too, they are all asking (begging) others to really care about them, too really love them.

" Don't wait for me coz I don't have a waiting list~ "

in other words, you are telling me to go away. CORRECT me if i'm wrong. but i believe its too late now. i'm going now and i'm happy for you. i'm happy for you if you think this is the right thing for you and for me.

" Don't come for as you are LOWER, you won' have me as your SUPERIOR~ "

i'm here, down low. i never want you to be my superior. i just need you to guide me. it just you who keep telling yourself that YOU WANT TO FEEL ON TOP OF THE WORLD, to be a superior. if that's what you really want, now you're getting it from her. and for that, I am happy for you.

" Come and earn me as EQUAL~ "

EQUAL = FAIR.... never ending story huh? we can never be EQUAL= SAME. why you never realise this? its ok. i am really happy for you and her. i will definitely pray for both of you to have a happy ending. Aminnnnn~~

" Won't have you if I still look down on you, COZ I'M AFRAID OF YOU~~~ "

THANK YOU, after more than 3years, now finally you say it. THANK YOU...






***** i am dying. i really am. but the other part of me, i am relieved. I AM. ;D

february.....

hype!!!

ow...due to that dengue fever, i skipped 2weeks of my clinical training session.
>>> i have to replace 10days from 14days MC n i'm on it.
worse, i'm doing my 2nd training session at the same place n the Head of Department wants us to work 6 DAYS A WEEK! i'v replaced 5 days, n for the next 5weeks, i'l b working 24/7.

great~~~


but i must say i'm okay with it..PLEASURE~~


other story, i've met the most crazy BIATCH ever n she used 2b some1 really close,some1 that i trust.
she turn outto b an IBLIS~~ bye BIG SIS aka JAHANAM refugee~~


wat more?? ouh.. in some place wher i call 2nd home, i'm a BLACK SHEEP.hard to explain.easier wen i said i rather b away than staying in.dont want to lose my head n drown~~ down~~~
i rather remain silent than making TROUBLE like those BIATCHES made.
like always...BUZZ OFF!!!


last but not least, its February. hehe~~

january..

salam....

didnt BLOG 4 a longgggggggg time. huhu

wat cn i say.. busyyyyy~~~

with practical...some stupid personal probs...n health probs.

ow...i suffered from dengue the end of january.
been warded, almost die.. yet here i m. ;) ALHAMDULILLAH~~

**our late Sultan passed away...
**realised that i hv to WORK harder~~

u know...i'm getting serious in this PHYSIOTHERAPY thingy..imma go for IT!

**** BEDRIDDEN *****

yeah2..i'm sick... AGAIN...

wats with my IMMUNE laa???? never been sick like this. i mean, keep having this fever and stuff..

and lasnyte, thats the worst. SO FAR....

after lunch, taking nap in the physiotherapy ward for like 50 mins, woke up n i can feel my heart beats is extremely SO FAST!! then i felt some kind pain on both of my palm plus i'm shivering..

duhhh.. i need my hand to perform percussion OK!! huhu
yet i manage to overcome the pain after taking painkiller...i hv to ok.. sob3

then went back home.. n my head spin like..hurm.. u spin my head right round round round when u go down when u go down down. eh..bukan2. i mean migrain. huhu

suddenly my body heating like i'm on a BBQ rod. dammit. n my back.. goddddd...

i got pain right from my back down to my thigh i cant barely get up from my bed.

what did i do then??
**change my clothes on my bed, put on sweater
**call MAK, cried like a lil baby (its painful ok, i mean my backpain.never having such pain!)
**call lawi ask him if he free yet he's not (but justnw he came n brought me to clinic)

cut it short, i'm fine now. the back pain is somehow "GONE". 4ever i hope. please10!!!
migrain?? decreasing..alhamdulillah...
fever??guess i'l b completely healthy by 2moro (I"M A GOOD AND STRONG GIRL >>girl ke??hik3<< I SUPPOSE)

ow... i skip my work today. huhu

*** sorry miss fira n miss vithya.. really sorry.. ***




thats all 4 now. chaO~~~