you just a kid & u barely know how exactly the WORLD is spinning

i actually upset at this moment..
peoples.. are unpredictable. their heart, mind.
tend to be GOOD in front of us, but behind us?? GOD knows~~

I have to say I AM NO GOOD but I AM NOT THAT BAD.. (well BAD is very subjective~~)
I trust almost nobody. and I have concrete reasons for that. don't blame me.

so let me start..
get to know an innocent girl 1 year back. a freshie.
help her by showing her around our place in Shah Alam n etc.
advised her on how to run a proper life in this new place.we're quit close at 1st.
i help her with study, assignments, test...

after few months, she's joining a group.
and she started to change.
trying to be just like other people in the group.
she bcomes such a rude, selfish, arrogant (MISS PERFECTO WHO KNOWS EVERYTHING)~~
erm.. i just say that she bcome a LOSER and POSER. sorry kid.

for the last few months we're not really talking to each other due to some personal issues.
and I'm the kind who dont give a SH%& to people who talking behind my back. but when it comes to my ear from a very convincing sources/peoples, U'l see my true colors.

few nights ago a friend asked, do i realized that THE GIRL has changed?
well,sure i did. so that friend tells me 1 after 1 thing that THE GIRL said behind my back.
i'm shocked, PISSED OFF!! grrr

1>> betul ke kak nad tu royalty??
2>> if betul, kenapa umah dia biasa2 je??
3>> betul ke kak nad tu pandai sangat??

and some other stuff too.

well dear, my answers would be;

1>> my 1st name should tell you EVERYTHING. ouh.. mayb u r TOO STU#@& to see it. and if i'm not pun, apa kau nak sibuk kan?? duhhh..
2>> alahaiiii... okay, i'm living in a double storeys house, a corner lot. ouh, and my PARENTS own IT. and u know what, for details, DO COME OVER and see it with your own EYES. u r WELCOME to my HEAVEN. ;D
3>> am I that clever??? what a stupid question. WHO HELPED u in ur study for the past 1 year? wanna see my result slip? or my SPM certificate? okay, i admit, I AM NOT THAT BRIGHT but.. I AM 10x CLEVER THAN YOU. and u know that kiddo. loserrrr~~

haishh.. adik, i've been patient for almost 5months now.
but what u said behind my back, thats really hurts. ur lucky that i'm FAR here. if not...

here what i want to say, (IT HARSH, but its FACTS) accept it.

1>> r u now living in ur parents house? or it just ur dad's?
2>> the money u have, is it all yours?
3>> do u have FRIENDS???
4>> when are you going to LEARN??

dik, akak tau akak pn ade silap but akak xpnah m'aibkan adik.
kekayaan and ksenangan adik bkn milik adik, tp milik adik2 tiri adik. tolong sedar.
jgn nak kutuk orang, cermin diri tu.
at least kn dik, akak x batak jantan, and x jakun naik kete import.
ouh.. maybe adik xtau, ayah akak hanya bawak BMW, Mercedes and Volvo.
akak tak penah bangga dgn nama yang akak ada, akak b'syukur di lahirkan bertuah.
ape la ade pd nama if dada ni KOSONG dik? nama tu x kmane.. mcm kkayaan jgk. kaya tp bodoh, mcmane nk maintain kaya kn?
n dgr kate adik nk stop blaja kt sana sbb dpt tawaran lg bgus ( bgosla klau btol), kt tmpt bru tu nanti, bwk2la brubah and sedar diri ye?
paling penting, mulut tu jage, bg wangi sikit. muke cantik tp mulut busuk, x gune dik oi.
awak muda lg,so jgn la b'lagak dgn akak2 and abang2 yg ada skrg. jgn smpai ktorg benci.
semua org pn da mnyampah dgn sikap prasan bgos, prasan pandai adik tu.
u have to accept that u cant compare urself with us, ur NOBODY.
so mould a new character and attitude, a GOOD 1. and u'll be FINE.

INSYA'ALLAH~~


ikhlas....

february.....

hype!!!

ow...due to that dengue fever, i skipped 2weeks of my clinical training session.
>>> i have to replace 10days from 14days MC n i'm on it.
worse, i'm doing my 2nd training session at the same place n the Head of Department wants us to work 6 DAYS A WEEK! i'v replaced 5 days, n for the next 5weeks, i'l b working 24/7.

great~~~


but i must say i'm okay with it..PLEASURE~~


other story, i've met the most crazy BIATCH ever n she used 2b some1 really close,some1 that i trust.
she turn outto b an IBLIS~~ bye BIG SIS aka JAHANAM refugee~~


wat more?? ouh.. in some place wher i call 2nd home, i'm a BLACK SHEEP.hard to explain.easier wen i said i rather b away than staying in.dont want to lose my head n drown~~ down~~~
i rather remain silent than making TROUBLE like those BIATCHES made.
like always...BUZZ OFF!!!


last but not least, its February. hehe~~

... u r loser and u don't know what style is ...

who is the loser?? an EX-BESTFRIEND which now also known as VICTORIA BECKHAM wannabe. LOSER!!!

well, she's been my enemy for the past 7months i guess. why?? good question. because i put on my hijab (tudung) and i start having a good lifestyle. no more going out in the weekend, doing all the stupid stuffs (maksiat to be exact, i used to be a bitch, but not anymore), no more hanging out at night (overnight), no more wearing all the tight clothes (but sometimes i do wear it, but i know the limit). that some of it. she makes all my ex housemates turn their back on me, and made up bad stories about me. she even say i'm not a virgin?? BODOH. what a loser. i did confront her, but since she's a loser, so she just remain silence. but behind my back, SHE IS TOTALLY A BITCH. so thats something about her.

ouh.. the story. okay2. this term, her course joining my course for Communication Skill subject. so i have to see her ugly face every thursday night. but i'm fine with it, it just, i hate to see her ugly face. i'm not saying i'm pretty or what, but i'm better than her, in and out. SORRY LOSER

okay, so, last sunday we had the presentation day. i wear my red baju kurung and put on my blazer. i think i look good (macam peguam okay? lols). i arrived quite late, by that time all the front sit is full so i have to sit at the back. on my way up, i saw her and 2 other ex housemates, as i come across her sit, i put my bag down and sit. (i sat exactly a row behind her). i'm talking to ratna and suddenly i heard..

LOSER>> eiii.. apsal perempuan ni duduk belakang. aku tak suke la perempuan ni.

PRETTY LADYakaREBUNG>> **silence** i want to see what more she got

LOSER>> eiii.. tiba2 panas la kat belakang. benci betul!!!

**i stood up, took out all the books i got in my bags and starting walking behind the LOSER, at the same time the book is to be a sign that the row that i have sit is for my group** while walking..

PRETTY LADYakaREBUNG>> aihh..pagi2 ni aku malas layan BABI bercakap. now BABI ni dah pandai. memang nak kena ajar. bunyi lagi sekali, siaplah kau. aku tak ada mood nak dengar BABI bercakap.

**i look at ratna and said..**

PRETTY LADYakaREBUNG>> At, aku tak ingin duduk belakang dengan BABI yang dangkal, agak2 kau nampak tempat kosong kat depan, bagitahu aku ye?? duduk belakang memang panas, ahli neraka ramai ni, mana tak panas kan? (hamek ko!)

okay, why didn't i just go straight and meet her? if i do so, there will be a fight. i'm a hot tempered person. once i hit someone, i just can't stop. plus, if i did that, i'm just humiliating myself. so i'll just play the game. waiting for her to piss off and lay her finger on me, and then....... you will see.

so i manage to change my sit and sit in the front. i can hear she keep "sindir2" me. i just smile. coz i know thats all she got, she don't have the guts to say anything in front of my face. what a LOSER. lols.
guess what she wear? baju kurung modern which is too tight for her (baju pinjam agaknya. haha. aku kejam. so whattt???). and once said, orang seni je tahu seni, baru la stylo. MAK KO!!!! seems like kau tak tahu seni la since baju kau ketat, macam sarung nangka busuk. LOLS!!!!
ouh.. not to forget. i think she is really piss off right now coz i lose weight. i was like really slim. and she is DAMN PLUMPY. mwahahahaha..

kesian ko. dah la bodoh, hodoh plak. LOSER. BIG TIME LOSER!!!

hamik ko!!!

OOPSSSS!!!!

okay, this the other part of me. the angry 1. i'll say all the bad words and don't care what might happen next. get in a fight? my pleasure. look forward for it. i'm not the 1 u want to mess with. so beware. if i said i hate u, so BUZZ OFF!

that should be all, THANK YOU. =)
xoxoxoxo