.. love >> past ...

okay.. i'm missing sum1. i do. i feel guilty to him. but i think he'll b fine. he always will. he's a fighter. aren't u Z.J???

i can't really remember the exact date we're texting each other. huhu. could b '04, '05 or '06 new year eve. got to know him from... NOT TELLING

we're friends, he's in Sabah while me in Johore. we're doing good. he's fun to talk to. great sense of humor.. (miss that moment..) we used to talk on the phone, late at night.he likes Beckham (he even have his poster on the wall in his room>> kind of gay isn't it?. then.. we get hooked up. lols. crazy huh? we don't even really know each other very well. but.. puppy love. u can say that. i know where he went for school, his family members, his passion in basketball n dancing.and, i'm fine with it. it just, i need company and i don't care whoever he is as long as he care about me. SILLY ME!! =)

well.. we dont really contacting each other, busy with school and stuff. but i remember, we always talked to each other almost every weekend. =) i did text him, but he's not always available. i miss him.. really..

u know, he always call me SI GENDUT, SI BOROI n stuff coz he thinks i'm too short n fat. haha. funny. its okay tho since we didn't know each other that well. he's a basketball player for Sabah, so i adore him a lot . when he's sulking, i always sing a song for him. he like it. stickwitu. haha. n some other songs.

ha.. i always asked him to sing a song for me too. guess what he sang? u're going to be shock. lols
he sang ABCs, 123, and Negaraku for me. haha!! yeah.. he's not romantic at all. but still, at that time, i'm in love with him (i guess) coz he makes me happy.. n we did sang a song together, but i don't remember what song is it, owh.. its by Westlife. sorry. SILLY US!! lols

ther's 1 time, he went to Labuan, he called me for hours. he went gambling. haha. silly him. he said he wears something which to me its a gay outfit. hehe. i don't remember if i ever told him that before. lols. when he's on the bus, he did let me talk to his sis (dessy). then he let me hear his favourite song (is it? i mean, is it ur favourite song? can't really remember that. huhu), owh. its MIRAEI. n he did promise me that 1 day he going to come n find me. sweet.. isn't he?

and told u what Z.J, i've learnt Japanese. don't b jealous ha u silly! c(=

and we did study together, yeah.. through calls. haha! i remember this 1, he don't know what 'perigi mencari timba' means. GOSH!! its like 3 or 4 months before SPM. haha.

'kutuk' each other so bad since i'm zero when it turn to add math. haha.

then... i d k.. i forgot. everything fall into pieces.. there's 1 time, ther's an eartquake somewhere in Indonesia. it affect his place. i cant reach him, i only get to talk to his dad. n thats it. i d k anything anymore.

but after SPM, we did contacting each other again. he blame me for not contacting him. its on and off. i mean, sometimes he's there, but sometimes, he's not. so i started seeing another guy here. n totally forgot him.

n last month, he got my yahoo messenger id, and he's online!! he never did tho. haha. i'm kind of shock. afraid too. yeah, he asking me back. he said he's here for me and stuff. but he don't know that i've moved on. so i made up a story, to hurt him. to make him stop. and i made it!

all i can say now, i'm sorry sayang. i did love u. but u deserve better. be good. i'll always here, praying for u, okay?

again, i'm sorry Z.J.. i really do.