... shOcking event!! ...

this is 1 of my dad's car, but its my favourite 1.. n its gone, a month ago.. huhu
my dad admitted to hospital, and the car was left outside the house for.. like 2months. maybe thats lead to this... poor car. huhu

the story, 1 nyte (the nyte my dad was home after 2months in hospital).
around 2am, my dad want to go out to buy handyplaster for his wound,
but my mom didnt let him and ask my brothers, AFIQ and ADEK(twin) to go.
they drove the car to 7e, as soon as they arrived home, **BOOM!!** n explosion from the engine.
both of them running out from the car and less than a minute, the car are all in fire.. =(
my bro's wallet, money, id, the handyplaster are all gone too..

shock. sad. yet i feel thankful to GOD that both of my brothers are okay.
i thank GOD cause its not my dad who went out that nyte.
ALHAMDULILLAH...

... exam 1>> JAPANESE ...

huhu.. yup, my 1st examination paper for this term is Japanese 1.. ZLU blablabla. lols
on 26th of April, 2.30pm. (yeah.. its on Sunday, crazy people<<> CRAZY.

i have to remember all the Katagana and Hiragana characters, prepositions, numbers, greetings, months, days, and etc. huhu..

and i have to know how to write in down in hiragana and katagana!! gOshhhh!!!!

lack of sleep, but alhamdulillah, there's only 1 part that i cant answer. huhu. the greetings. i d k what " SEND MY REGARD TO EVERYONE" in Japanese. huhu.. i only know 'MINNA' is for everyone.. huhu. ok.. thats it. i've done it. no more Japanese. lols

thanks to Ajizu Sensei. i don't really like Japanese, but bcoz of u, i learn to like them, n i like their culture. thanks to u for that. =)

... Happy 20th Birthday!!!!...

22nd of April..

happy birthday to me..
happy birthday to me..
happy birthday to me, REBUNG....
happy birthday to me..
happy birthday to me..... =)

i wish this year will be one of the greatest year (better than last year,a year before that and a year before that. lols)...

wish some of my dreams will come true (since 1 of my dream has slipped away.. =( but its ok. life must go on)

to my all my dearest friends>> thanks for the wishes, the prayers and gift.
KOTAK>> the 1st person to wish.. SING?? hehe
Kak Rose>> for the entry upon my birthday.. gee.. THANKS!!!!
Lawi>> cake and chocolate and the present. i appreciate it. thanks friend!!

again.. THANKS!!!!!!!

... u used to ...

i'm doing well so far. its not easy. Ratna, ni nko punya pasal asyik sebut2 nama dia, maka sedikit sebanyak, aku teringat. aku mampu senyum jela. tak daya nak buat apa2. patah kata Abang Megat>> NKO NI MEMANG TAKDE PERASAAN EA???

lols.. a'ah. aku takde perasaan. if ada sekali pun, ada yang nampak? ada yang faham? (mari gelak sama2. wakakaka)

masa jungle tracking, teringat dia. he loves nature so much, but now i'm in the jungle doing the adventure, on my own. terfikir, if i tell him my experience, mau dia buat muka, jealous, merajuk, marah. i d k.
apa lagi yang mampu aku buat? SENYUM saje.. =)

life is hard. LOVE sucks. FRIENDSHIP last forever. am i right?? =)

ouh.. another shocking event. his ex, after more than a year i'm trying to b friends with her, at last she's the 1 who want to be friends! i'm suprise, she rejected me like.. TRILLIONS time! and now, after EVERYTHING, she wanted to be friend.

LIFE IS FULL OF SUPRISES!!!

apa lagi aku mampu buat? senyum saje.. =)

so, i accept it. i just hope my life will not be miserable anymore.

friends, thats all i need for now...

this is for you, you used to make it real. =) thanks for the memories.

You Make It Real

There's so much craziness surrounding me,
There's so much going on it gets hard to breath
When all my faith has gone you, bring it back to me,
You make it real for me

Well I'm not sure of my priorities,
I've lost sight of where I’m meant to be
And like holy water washing over me,
You make it real for me

And I am running to you baby,
You are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately,
'Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong, but my heart is weak,
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
When I can't find the words, you teach my heart to speak,
You make it real for me

And I am running to you baby,
You are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately,
'Cause you make it real for me

Everybody's talking in words I don't understand,
You got to be the only one, who knows just who I am
And you're shining in the distance,
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place that I want to be is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more I have to learn,
But if you're here with me, I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere, somewhere I can learn,
You make it real for me

And I am running to you baby,
Cause you are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately,
'Cause you make it real for me
You make it real for me

... TRAINER or MOTIVATOR?? ...

just got back from camping (3days and 2nights)..
at Sungai Congkak, Selangor. being a trainer (there's 5 of us me, Shuq aka Ekang, Mazni aka Putih, Muz aka Kechik, Wan).
117 students from MGS, (yeah.. they're all girls, from form 1 til 5)

well i expect things going to be tough, u know, girls... fiuhhh...
but guess i'm wrong, they're okay. not that bad. some of themis too hard for me to handle. but over all, i'm fine and i guess they're fine. yeah, i made some of them cried. its fun!!! haha.
sorry... i'm dOing my jOb.

and i'm really tired. i'm the only girl (trainer), the other 3 is the (motivator), so i'm doing so many hard work. gOshhh... (penat gilerrrrrr!!!!), not enough sleep, not even have time to eat. well i did some of the motivator work, i gave them a moral talk. so they did see the other part of me, the "baik" 1 (cause i can't raise my voice, no cursing n stuff. just advise and a little threats , so.. i did just okay..).

ouh.. ya.. meet new friends again!!



lin+me+liza


kak Shuq+kak Kechik

didn't really take pixx, didn't get the chance. so.. thats all for now.
i had a good weekend!!

ouh.. now i'm wOndering, i'm better in training people or in motivating people... which 1 should i be in the next camp??

... move on ...

my status>> SINGLE & SWINGER. lols

yup, its true and i'm pretty sure that its really over now. i really don't want him anymore and i already start seeing another guy.

"a week, and thats it??"

well, yeah, the sooner the better.
i can't stand the pain and i can't stand being alone.
u can call me whatever u want, BITCH, SLUT, CHEAP or whatsoever. i don't give a damn. why?? cause you're not my guy, you're NOBODY. so i'm okay with it. =)

p/s>> I'VE TOLD YOU,IF I'M STARTING SEEING ANOTHER GUY, IT MEANS THERE IS NO TURNING BACK. SO, LETS MOVE ON AND BEYOND!!! =)

... Do You Agree??? ...

i came across this statement in a magazine. and somehOw, i agree with it. what abOut you??

Lelaki memberikan CINTA, untuk mendapatkan segala-galanya.

Perempuan memberikan segala-galanya, untuk mendapatkan CINTA...

Man gave their LOVE, to get everything.

Woman gave up everything, just to get LOVE..

... 12th of APRIL>> crazy day!! ...

went to Sungai Congkak for the 1st time. yay!!!!! guess what, pukul 4.30am tu g sana. haha!!!

ratna promise me a chalet to sleep, and she lied!!! eeeee!!! i slept in a hut, on a tree!!!! huh... with the bugs and everything. and no blanket!!

kotak lak, takutkan pasal lintah and pacat. messagenya berbunyi begini:

"tahukah anda pacat@lintah sejenis binatang yang boleh panjat pokok dan suka hisap darah budak perempuan"

hampeh punye kawan!! huhu =,( i end up, didn't sleep!!!!!

and next morning, at 8am, doing the senaman pagi with the kids. ouh.. i met lots of new friends. happy!!

Seha & Nana>> Unisel students
K.Chu Ai, K.Sabah, K.Tdong (tak ingat name, so letak nama glamour je)>> UPSI
Danial>> Cousin Ratna (handsOme.. uuu. lols)
Amirul>> Anak ayam baru menetas..
Abu>> Abu Hurairah name penuhnye.. terkedu skejap.
Abg Jamal>> funny gila mamat ni, sporting abis!
Abg Comel, Abg Ganu>> UPSI gak..
fun. diorang sangat sporting and gila!! nanti jumpa lagi!! yay2!!!

sangat happy malam tu aka last night. makan ramai2, borak sampai nyaris bertumbuk (tak dapat explain because... terlalu complicated).. tapi, semua okay la.

so.. another day ended. and i think i'm doing just fine.
ouh.. kotak, guys memang lampi kan?? korang memang teruk! hahah seb baek Nisang half lelaki.

yang penting, i'm so happy. EMBRACE THE PRESENT... yea!!!

tapi.. tak ambil gambar.. kenapa?? handphone tak charge. lols. takpe, next time ada la. =D

... PUBLIC SPEAKING AND MIMI!!! ...

1>> me, 2>>ugly me, again, 3>> with mr.AZRUL 4>> MIMIE!!!!!

.. 11th April 2009..

again.. a hectic day.. lack of rest. kurang tdO and stuff..

woke up at 6.30, went to public speaking class. present around 11.30am. (ngantOk tunggu turn, gilak!!) but ALHAMDULILLAH, everythings went really smooth. even 'merepek' in front of my classmates, but, its ended. i mean, this public speaking session should be done last month. and at last... its DONE!!!!! yay!!!

the class ended around 2.30pm, and... i got another class at 2pm, 30mins late. musculoskeletal practical class, where i need to wear something more appropriate (tracksuit and loose t shirt), and i don't have time to change so i just go to the class wearing my NYEH2 CORPORATE suit. (korporat la sangat, cam keparat ade gaks. uhuk!).

ahh.. thank GOD i'm not the only 1 wearing like that, there's others, having public speaking also (maka, x cuak if kne sOund. ahahaha). go to class, (penat, tapi dah kena ugOt dengan Ratna), so pergi juga....

lecturer datang lambat. dah tu, bawa anak dia, SYAMIMI NAFISAH, 3 years old. sambil belajar, sambil main-main. lols. (she loves taking pixx, and very adOrable.. haizzz) so, tak terasa penat, sebab HAPPY ade budak cute depan mata plus memang rindu anak2 sedara, maka... HAPPY!!!!!! =)

in a nutshell... its a damn hectic yet pretty HAPPY day.. =)

... SURVIVING ...

what a slow and bOring day..

woke up at 10a.m. didn't go for the public speaking class (tomorrow i will...)
didn't pass up my Japanese assignments (next week i will...)
didn't go out, didn't eat (yet).. its its too hot in the afternoon and now its raining(cats and dogs just now).. huh. BORED...

ouh.. thanks to u for CELA, it means a lot.

CELA

rabak mataku, pena menari-nari,
tinta berdarah, kata membara-bara,
masanya ku bernafas kini terakhir kali,
puas sudahku sesak dalam dunia sempit...

dulu tersungkur, kini berdiri,kau bermain api,

kini ku bakari..
dulu menunduk, kini ku celik, kau bermain api..

engkau mahu sempurna, engkau jadi sempurna
biar aku bahagia dengan celaku,
engkau mahu malaikat turun dari kayangan
biar aku bahagia dengan celaku..

mengapa tidak engkau cermin saja dirimu yang sempurna mempesona?
ku bahagia dengan cela
mengapa tidak kau bercinta saja dengan dirimu yang sempurna mempesona
ku bahagia dengan cela...

SIAPA YANG MAMPU MENCAPAI MAHUMU BILAMANA KAU JUGA SEORANG MANUSIA...

... 9th of APRIL 2009 ...

... SUSPENS!!!! ...

another HECTIC day.. =(

i didn't get enough sleep last nyte, working on my individual video clip for Communication Skill.. thanks to Ratna,for being creative,being patiet and accompany me for the whOle nyte! LOVE U, Ratna chan!! and not to forget, thanks to KAK ROSE for the tips. =)

done the video around 5am, texting with my friend, KOTAK til he off to class. thanks to u too TAK. =)

went to class at 5.30pm which is 1 and half hour early. we have to burn our personal video and print out our resume, so thats why we kind of early.

in the class, i've waited for my other 8 group mates. but they're still not in the class even after 1hour the class has started!!! i waited for my group video shooting too, its with 1 of them. and around 9pm, the class almost done, then i get to know that they got problems. they save all their videos in a thumbdrive, try to burn it into cd. and..... a problems turn up! but at the end, we're fine.

MYRA, THANKS honey, for your hardwork. sorry to burden you with the editing and stuff. but u have to know, we appreciate it hun. we really do.

WE LOVE YOU MYRALICIOUS!!! THANX!!!

... which 1 the best???? ...

WONDER GIRLS


korean girl and boy trying to tell me dance

p/s >> check this out too!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G1mAT6vwPxg&feature=PlayList&p=718B9B63C4945AF9&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=6

.. I'M SO HOT!!!! ..

korean artist>>WONDER GIRLS

found out 'bout them like, 2weeks ago and i'm in love with the steps!! lols.

.. F.R.I.E.N.D.S ..

saya ada kawan, nama dia KOTAK.

dia baik dan dia comel.

semalam dia teman saya buat assignment sampai subuh.

terima kasih KOTAK.

ouhh.. TAK, thnx tau layan kepale biol ku nih.. thnx sbb rela kena buli ngn aku. ko x mara kn?? =D

hope kita kawan sampai bile2. =)

again, thanx KOTAK.. =)

.. LOVE SUCKS!! ..

okay.. like always, when i talk about love, its all about fighting, breaking up and hook up, AGAIN AND AGAIN.

told u what? i'm sick of it. i really do. it just, i need someone. i don't like to be alone.

and now i have my lovely RATNA, KAK ROSE, KAK NONA, MILA and ADA.

i love them. thanks for being a good listener. thanks for being there.

to you, i don't hate you. i hate myself. you're a good guy but i'm not the 1 and i think i need more than just a GOOD GUY. so, i hope this time, its for real. bye bye to US and hye to YOU. =)

... exausted ...

goshhhh.. what a week.... its not ending yet, so i'll just let myself dying in it.. huhu

CARDIORESPIRATORY 2 Practical Exam, 7th of April, went just OKAY laaaa...
there's 3 station, i screw up in the 3rd station under Puan Fairuz (my greatest lecturer so far>> she's very strict but at the same time,mother-like). i got this question, i have to make 5problems listing and what treatment should i apply? when i'm about to list out the problems,

LOVELY LECTURER >> "just go to the treatments"
BLANKY BLANK REBUNG >> "err.. okay"

the truth is, i accidently became blank. i have to list the problems 1st, then i can think of the treatment. but now, I"M TOTALLY BLANK!!!! =( so, i can't do it. i don't relly answer the question in the 3rd station. =( =( =(

station 1 & 2? the best stations since it takes me to converse with my patient and test my skill on handling stethoscope and spyghmanometer(the blood pressure measurement stuff). and i can say, I'M GREAT in it!!!

ouh.. n i forgot to wish my sister 21st birthday.. sorry Nis, been really busy studying. sorry????

dear, HANIS...
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to u..
wish u be a better and a wiser person.
may u got all the things u wanted in life..
(well, its a long way to go, but please don't stop, just keep on moving..)
Happy birthday....

your 'GIFT' for me.. should i keep it? hold to it?

<<1>>
My song is love
My song is love, unknown
But I'm on fire for you, clearly
You don't have to be alone
You don't have to be on your own

And I'm not gonna take it back
And I'm not gonna say I don't mean that
You're the target that I'm aiming at
And I'm nothing on my own
Got to get that message home

And I'm not gonna stand and wait
Not gonna leave it until it's much too late
On a platform I'm gonna stand and say
That I'm nothing on my own
And I love you, please come home..

<<2>>
And I..
Will never try to deny,
that you're my whole life,
'cause if you ever let me go,
I would die..
So I won't front,
I don't need another woman,
I just need your all and nothing,
'cause if I got that,
Then I'll be straight
Baby, you're the best part of my day..

<<3>>
There is no 1 day I walk without thinking of you,
No 1 night I’m sleeping without dreaming of you,
I wish a future with you, that is so promising and it would be true
I just love you and want just you..

LISTEN TO ME....

THESE THINGS I'LL NEVER SAY

I'm tugging at my hair, I'm pulling at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool but I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet and my cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head

I'm feeling nervous, trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it

If I could say what I want to say, I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night, am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see, I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today, Yes, I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

It don't do me any good, it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you, what's on my mind
If ain't coming out, we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care

What's wrong with my tongue, these words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble... Like I've got nothing to say
Guess I'm wishing my life away
with these things I'll never say

If I could say what I want to say, I'd say I wanna blow you...away
Be with you every night, am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see, I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today, guess I'm wishing my life away
These things I'll never say..

THE BEST DAMN THING

I hate it when a guy doesn't get the door

even though I told him yesterday and the day before...

I hate it when a guy doesn't get the tab

and I have to put my money out and that looks bad!

Where are the hopes? Where are the dreams?

My Cinderella story scene. When do you thinkthey'll finally see......

That you're not, not, not, gonna get any better,

you won't, won't, won't, you won't get rid of menever,

like it or not even though she's a lot like me....

We're not the same, and yeah, yeah, yeah

I'm a lot to handle, you don't know trouble

I'm a hell of a scandal, me, I'm a scene, I'm a drama queen,

I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen!

I hate it when a guy doesn't understand

why a certain time of month, I don't want to hold his hand,

I hate it when they go out and we stayin,

and they come home smelling like their ex-girlfriends...

I found my hopes, I found my dreams.

My Cinderella story scene.

Now everybody's gonna see.....

I'm a lot to handle, you don't know trouble

I'm a hell of a scandal, me, I'm a scene, I'm a drama queen,

I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen!

Where are the hopes? Where are the dreams?

My Cinderella story scene. When do you think they'll finally see......

I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen!

.. scandal for LIFE??? ...

nahhhhh.. a friend.. a good friend of mine.

kutuk2.. maki2.. but then.. still friends.

well i guess he's a true friend.

kutukla aku puas2, buli laaa.... tak heran, da biase.

love u, always. nak charge???? boleh blah. taknak bayar.

ape2 pun, those who thinks you're a friend of mine, remember this.

i love you. it just, i'm loving myself more.

i never forget u, but sometimes i have no time to think of u.

but still, we're FRIENDS, and i always LOVE you!!!

Favourite Quotes... so far. lols.. =P

Keep your eyes on the stars and your feet on the ground.
-Theodore Roosevelt-

Have a heart that never hardens, and a temper that never tires, and a touch that never hurts.
-Charles Dickens-

All glory comes from daring to begin.
-William Shakespeare-

If you would be loved, love and be lovable.
-Benjamin Franklin-

If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes.
-St. Clement of Alexandra-

Without inspiration the best powers of the mind remain dormant, they is a fuel in us which needs to be ignited with sparks.
-Johann Gottfried Von Herder-

Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall.
-Confucius-

By associating with wise people you will become wise yourself.
-Menander-

Our life's a stage, a comedy: either learn to play and take it lightly, or bear its troubles patiently.
-Palladas-

As I grow to understand life less and less, I learn to love it more and more.
-Jules Renard-

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
-Benjamin Franklin-

... life>> HELL ??? ...

Kata Euripides, "Question everything. Learn something. Answer nothing". Aku rasa aku dah amalkan benda ini agak lama cuma kadang-kadang aku terpaksa juga answer at least something kepada orang sekeliling.In any circumstances, I will question whatever that is around me as long as it is sensible. Yet the most insane thought never fail to appear... Terlalu imaginative mungkin.

Dalam teori Karma kata, "we create our own hell". Aku sedang wondering kalau-kalau kata-kata, "we are our own hell" boleh diterima. Jika boleh, I am going to write my own fucking philosophy book.

i came across my dearest friends blog post. well his a thinker. lols. but, seriously, he is. (i didn't mention your name, so don't charge me! haha)

really attracted to his post, so i paste it here so you'll get the chance to read it too.

i agree with his post. really2.. the EURIPIDES.. we tend to do things against what we should really do, you know?? end up messing things up, make the world go up side down, get things worst. crazy. if we only know what this EURIPIDES has said and stick to it earlier.. huhu. ( CAN WE??? )

the KARMA.... well, i have my own heaven here. and my hell in it. life. that's life. what goes around, comes around.

PEACE!!!

...test.. next??? EXAM!!!!!

showing off?? errr.. maybe? lols. proud of myself! yay! but seriously, it is not easy. erm.. my real marks maybe around 70++. the rest, RATANA chan and AJIZU sensei help me out with the katagana characters. huhu
but still... i'm proud of myself!!! hahah!!!

Exam is around the corner. 7th of April (tuesday) is my Cardiorespiratory 2 practical exam, WISH ME GOODLUCK!!

to those who about to have exam, GANBATTE KUDASAI!!!!