MYSELF...

1st Ramadhan... again. Alhamdulillah.. =)

but i cry a lot, starting from habis tarawikh til asar tadi. hehe...

let u go.. let me go. wil we do it? i mean, for real?? its not easy. never will.. i d k..

me..
i never end up wit some1 i like. but whoever willing to stay, to love, to care, to protect me, then i'l stay with him...

me..
emotional.... kuat merajuk. kuat jealous..

me..
willing to listen to whatever her love 1 need to say.

me..
doesn't like to b alone. never want to b alone.

me..
doesn't like to b ignore n hanging on something where ther is no concrete reason or answer..

me..
wil b COMPLETELY crazy wenever she emotional. she willing to say the most dirtiest thing on earth but she'll recover soon after she let everything out of her chest..

me..
quite a good drama queen... wil say dat she'll harm herself just to keep some1 she love, to keep him stay..


now she's on her own again. falling again. with no 1 lend her a hand.

to u.. i do love. wish i can get over u..

to some1 out there, my savior (maybe??).. this is me.

i'm sorry..

againnnn

TEN HOW'S:

How did you get one of your scars?

wen i was 5.. fell down after running in the kindergarten

How did you celebrate your last birthday?

last?? with Mutawalli, Eyka@katek, Iz@bear, usop, lyas, cahaya

How are you feeling at this moment?

a lil stress..

How did your night go last night?

pretty fun,went to tesco wit Lawi, iz n radhi then had dinnet in Seksyen2.

How did you do in high school?

quiet?? Fun?? LOL

How did you get the shirt you're wearing?

Abah bought from KL, past few years..

How often do you see ur best friend?

wenever we both free??

How much money did you spend last month?

last month?? july is it? 900++

How old do you want to be when you get married?

now. LOL

How old will you be at your next birthday?

21.. shiatttt

NINE WHAT'S:

Your mothers name?

Puan Nooraini bt Hj. Tahir

What did you do last weekend?

settling college stuff

What is the most important part of your life?

evrything

What would you rather be doing?

sleep..

What did you last cry over?

missing my family back home in JB.

What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?

jokes..

What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?

sincerity..

What are you worried about?

LOAN!!!

What did you have for breakfast?

yogurt n bun.

EIGHT HAVE YOU’S:

Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?

hahahahahahahaaa! yes la dow like je kan. so yes

Have you ever had your heartbroken?

ha-ha-ha lagi! idk

Have you ever been out of the country?

yes

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?

yes yes yes yes and YES!

Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?

YES AND YES

Have you ever had sex on the beach?

aww; would think of that

Have you ever dated someone younger than you?

nope

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?

yes

SEVEN WHO’S:

Who was the last person you saw?

jay

Who was the last person you texted?

jay

Who was the last person you hungout with?

yaya , nina , khai

Who was the last person to call you?

jay jugak

Who did you last hug?

ji shu my darling (:

Who is the last person who texted you?

khairiyah

Who was the las person you said "i love you" to?

entah

SIX WHERE’S:

Where does your best friend live?

somewhere alaa dlm rumah dia laa

Where did you last go?

Aeon

Where did you last hang out?

Just now

Where do you go to school?

where? MGS la kan?

Where is your favorite place to be?

somewhere in PEACEFUL PLACE

Where did you sleep last night?

in my bed

FIVE DO’S/DOES:

Do you like someone right now?

yes

Do you think anyone likes you?

haha No

Do you ever wish you were someone else?

NO

Do you know the muffin man?

NO

Does the future scare you?

aww bring it on, I'm in

FOUR WHY’S:

Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)?

because we are one

Why did you get a myspace?

just cause

Why did your parents give you the name you have?

my mom personal ustazah gave that actually

Why are you doing this survey?

I am bored and I can't sleep

THREE IF’S:

If you could have one super power what would it be??

i wanted that cupid job so everyone have their perfect match and not hurt inside

If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?

YES , I WOULD !

If u were stranded on a deserted island & could bring 1 thing what would you bring?

edward cullen , can ? hahahahahahaa

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:

Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?

I don't have one

Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?

depends but takla dow!

ONE LAST QUESTION

Are you happy with your life right now?

i'm cool with it ;)

Abah and Mak!

i miss them. seriously. more than ever. worry about them. i d k y...

i didnt go back to JB like more than 2months. abah keep calling n askin me to come back to JB. but i said i cant, due to my part time job b4 my class starts next week (17th Aug)..

n there's some personal conflict that i had this past few months... i just dont have the guts to go back to JB. i rather stay here n finish my school 1st. then i wil go back to JB n bring my DIPLOMA. so my parents wil b happy. thats my plan. but now.. i d k..

abah text me yesterday, "abah d hospital, buat radiotherapy yang 1st out of 25sessions,kena buat tiap2 hari"

then i call, abah with mak. he's driving on his own to the hospital. i cried. if only i'm in JB.. my sis bz with her job. my bro din have the license yet...
n abah also said, Mak's blood pressure is high its 205 over 90. i wuz like, WHAT??????!!! dat is DAMN high. normal is 120 over 80. i didnt talk to mak for 2months also, merajuk i muz say. n now i really want to talk to her, i'm so worry. but i d k wat to say so i said to abah, "kirim salam mak, cakap kat mak jgn tension2". dats it. i d k wat more to say... ='(

after that i end up crying for the whole nyte. i d k wat to do. half hearted. i want to go home, but my ego said "NO". i really dunno wat to do.

i'm so sad. no. i'm really2 sad... =(

Mak Abah, Dya minta maaf lame tak balik. taknak susakn abah. n taknak buat mak risau. Dya ok kat sini. Dya blaja elok2, Dya janji. Dya janji akan buat Mak Abah bangga dengan Dya. Dya janji takkan kecewakan Mak Abah. Dya janji. Dya minta maaf if ada klakuan Dya buat Mak Abah kecil hati. Dya minta maaf. harap Mak Abah doakn kjayaan Dya slalu. Dya doakn Mak Abah sehat sentiasa. aminnnn..

LOAN>>HOLD?????!!!

yup.. my loan is been hold. dammit...

coz of this onestupiddocument..

so i went to damansara, sign some doc n they say the money wil come in a bit. early october.

IN A BIT>>> EARLY OCTOBER???? wut da hell on earth??

i need money!! give me the money laa!!!!!!


sad (>.<)!!!!!

wish...

today i'm settling my register fee for diz coming new term.
done it at BANK ISLAM.. rm250.
wil b registering for new term on 12 til 14 ou august. cant wait!!
i miss schoolllllll..... =( sob3


pay my house rent already..

so thats it.

it just....




bile loan nak masuk nihhhhhhhhhhh???!!!! help!!!!!!!!

THE PROPOSAL

wat a weekend..

i didnt see him for a week. bored like hell.

til dat saturday nyte he text me n ask me to get ready for tomorrow. A DATE!! weeeee.. =p

i miss him. i'm excited til i didnt sleep dat nyte. LOL!! yet fall asleep at 5am. ngeee

so the day is here!!
woke up at 9am... mandi manda..
and he arrived at 11.30am (an hour and half LATE)..

we went to stadium melawati for the bazar..
then to bukit tinggi, wathing THE PROPOSAL!!! =)

mannnnnnn... its hilarious!! i swear. its all ther. comedy, romance, action. GREAT!!

i love it!!!

so thats my weekend.. =)

THE RULES!!!

1. The female always makes the rules
2. The rules are subject to change at any time without prior notification.
3. No male can possibly know all the rules.
4. If the female suspects the MALE know all the rules, she must immediately change some or all of the rules.
5. The female is never wrong.
6. If the female is wrong, it is due to a misunderstanding which was a result of something the male did or said wrong.
7. The male must apologize immediately for causing said misunderstanding.
8. The female may change her mind at any time.
9. The male must never change his mind without the express written consent of the female.
10. The female has every right to be angry or upset at any time.
11. The male must remain calm at all times unless the female wants him to be angry or upset.
12. The female must, under no circumstances, let the male know whether or not she wants him to be angry and/or upset.
13. The male is expected to mind read at all times.
14. Any attempt to document the rules could result in bodily harm.
15. If the female has PMS, all the rules are null and void.
16. The female is ready when she is ready.
17. The male must be ready at all time.
18. The male who doesn't abide by the rules can't take the heat, lacks backbone, and is a wimp.

.. UPS and DOWNS ..

in a fight, broke up and like always, we get back together.. AGAIN.

yup. wenever we get in a fight, we end up maki2, n blaming each other. telling ourself, 'THATS IT!!' not going to get back or give u another chance. u know? the EMO me... =)

ouh this time, i thought he got another girl, too afraid that he'll 'kantoi' so he digging up the past & put all the blame on me. i was like "Y ALL THE SUDDEN U GET UPSET? PMS?". after few days, went to see his click, IZ. from Iz i got to know that he actually jealous. DAMMIT!! is it so hard to say that ur jealous????

thats him. always make things complicated.

then i met him, dinner, talk, heart to heart. EASY isnt it? just tell me la sayang, jangan tibe2 nak ngamok, mngalahkan saya PMS.



p/s.. Y after all i've been through, all the pain, I still get back with him? FAITH. coz i have faith in him.

i love you...

.... break ....

its Unisel semester break, going to register for the new term on august 12-14...

work... i'm doing okay. yeah its a tough job yet since i need money so i'm willing to do it as long as it didnt put myself in trouble. =)

ouh..btw, my boss is a chinese. she always ask me, "r u tired? go take 5 laa.. then get back to work!" ngaaaaaaaaa...
she said, nowadays everybody wants lotsa money. she's right. and she also said, you want money you have to work hard, play hard. if you work but you dont feel tired, you'll get money but you'll never get rich.

THINK THINK THINK


p/s.. BILE LOAN NAK MASOK????!!!

exhausted+MISSING

i already work for a week now..

tired. nO... exhausted i muz say.

but its ok, i can manage dat. =)

ouh.. abah called justnow.

i miss him. worry.

n i miss mak too. i d k wat to say anymore.

just..



I MISS U..

LOVE ???

curi frOm QIQI. LOL..

His Birthday: September 8, 1985

How long have you been together? TOGETHER? hurm.. 1 year and 3months..

How long did you know each other before you got together? a month. LOL!!

What physical features attracted you to him first? His height. His skin colour. his smile. *wink2*

Hair color: black.

Hair style: adesh.. yang ni susa nk explain. wawawawa

How did you know each other? from Mat Top. huhu


RELATIONSHIP STUFF

How serious is it: KINDA

Are you in love?: err.. yeap.

Do your parents like him: i d k.

Does it matter?: suppose to.

Do you trust him? Yes, i do.

Do you like the way he smells: hehe.. ya.

Can you picture having kids with him: yup. a girl>> BASMA. a boy>> dunno yet

Does he have a temper? yes. but i have bigger 1. m i?? lol

Are you happy to be with him: yes.

Does he embarrassed you in public: ALWAYSSSSSSS... nah.. joking.


SOME OTHER STUFF

Does he have any piercings?: its a NO NO.

Does he have any scars that you know of?: yup.. a lots.

Is he a party dude or stay at home kind of guy?: home kind of guy..

Is he Outgoing or Shy? outgoing. he love to try to do new things. =)

Does he love his mama? Yes, anak mak.

Would he hang out with you and YOUR friends? not really. depends la. if he know them, then he'll join us.

Does he sing? yea!!!

Does he snore? i d k.

Do you like his friends? yup2..

Michael

lawi told me.. some says that usually those who have 'MICHAEL' as their 1st, middle or last name is "somebody". like michael shumacher, michael jordan, michael jackson....

ok.. i'm carried away.. i muz say. suddenly all peoples admitting that they loves MJ so much. frankly speaking, i'm not a big fan of him. but i have to say i know almost everything he's been thru, obviously bcoz its on PAPER, in the internet. u know? since he is somebody right?

pedophilia.. gay.. plastic surgeries.. neverland.. bancruptcy.. prince michael I, paris, blanket.. and etc..

since i'm not a fan of him, so i dont really care about all that. really. his life. so what?

but june 25, i must say i'm shocked. he's gone. well i'm waiting "THIS IS IT" concert. i want to c him. is he stil great? is he stil got da move? u know.. i want to really watch MICHAEL JACKSON.
but.. he's gone. May GOD bless him.

it make me watch 1 of his video, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I NEVER WATCH IT !! i cried. YES,,, i cry like watching 1litre of tears. dammit! sob3

few days passes.. still, wenever he's story on the news, i suddenly cry. he is somebody. i look for his biography and stuff. i read all the story. and this is wat i have to say.


at least the past 10years, he's never happy. HE's a grown up man. but his heart, mind.. he is still a kid. yes, he is not normal. ARE WE NORMAL EITHER??? he's growing up in front of thousands eyes since he was 5. can u imagine that? he barely know wat NORMAL is. i'm sure, all his life, he want to make other people happy. and here, i say, HE IS NOT A PEDOPHILE. he loves kids, i mean LOVE=CARE. y? becoz dun get the chance to really been loves and care by a real ADULT! he been in this field (entertaiment) coz he want to change his family life. he did it.

somehow i feel like, everybody that close to him, that he trust, took advantage on his kindness. really. too much too say bcoz i got to know who MICHAEL JACKSON is only after he's gone.

yeah.. shame on me..

n still, i'm crying.. i d k y. =(

i think i love him.

to MJ>> u will owez b in our heart, u've change the world. thats what u want, n u have to know that u've made it. May GOD bless your soul. and now, all this people, wil totally leave u alone. and they will owez remember u and all ur songs.. I LOVE YOU.

its for you, FRIEND....

personal issues>>> DRAMAS!!!

here's the TRUTH, this is what i think about BEING a FRIEND..

"Friendship is always a sweet responsibilty, never an oppourtunity."
- Kahil Gibran

"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Walk beside me and be my friend."
- Albert Camus

"Strangers are just friends waiting to happen." – Steve

"I can trust my friends. These people force me to examine, encourage me to grow."
-Cher

"I can doubt my friends, but I can believe in our friendship."

"You are you and I am I,
You do your thing and I'll do mine,
and if in the end we meet up together,
it is beautiful."
-Boy Meets World

and this is what i'm expecting FRIENDS should be and should DO..

"Best friends are like diamonds, precious and rare
False friends are like leaves, found everywhere."
- Anoymous

"Everyone is a friend, until they prove otherwise."

"Treat people as if they were what they ought to be and you help them to become what they are capable of being."
-Goethe

i hope YOU (my friends) can truly and sincerely accept ME as ur FRIEND. and i have to say dat i agree with this, hope u will too..

"Love doesn't make the world go round, it makes the ride worthwhile." -F.P. Jones

"All our young lives we search for someone to love, someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope, all the while wondering if somewhere and somehow there is someone searching for us."
-The Wonder Years

"We laughed
until we had to cry.
We gave love,
right down to our last goodbye.
We were the best
we thought we'd ever be
Just you and me,
for just a moment...

"You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back."
-Barbara DeAngelis

last but not least......

"My wish upon this shooting star is that your heart be happy."
-Gilbert

"IF YOU TREAT YOUR FRIEND AS THEY SHOULD BE, THEY WILL BECOME ONE OF THE CROWD. IF YOU TREAT YOUR FRIEND AS THEY OUGHT TO BE TREATED, THEY WILL BECOME AN INDIVIDUAL."

ABDI

makin kita tercari-cari diri
makin kita kenal dengan budi pekerti
yang mudah sangat tergelincir jadi abdi.

ada sape2 faham???

tonight i feel very2 sad.. very2.
rase useless. alone.
ntahla... everything seems..... MESSED UP.
i dont know why.

THEY hate me. LOATH, dats d word.
but THEY r all i HAVE.
without them, i rather die.
without them, i cant find the meaning of LIFE.
but now they turning their back. refuse to let me explain wats going on.

what shud i DO now?
what shud i SAY?
what shud i think of?
where shud i head to?

too many questions... but

THERE IS NO ANSWER..

and the quotes.. it means.

"kalau nak kenal Allah, kau kenal la kekasihnya yakni Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. kalau kau nak kenal Nabi Muhammad, kau kenal la diri kau.."

sebab ape bile kita kenal diri kita sbenarnya..
kita kenal ape itu baik dan ape itu jahat..

fitrah manusia bukan utk buat jahat tapi sentiasa berlaku baik..

so kalau fitrah manusia tu baik.. maka Nabi itu manusia yang terbaik..
kalau Nabi itu manusia yang terbaik.. maka yang menciptanya adalah YANG MAHA TERBAIK..

so kite perlu ada and kenal budi pekerti.
"tergelincir la jadi abdi", sebab kite ni hambaNYA..

now i feel a lil relief... i wish i can sleep now n not having bad dreams, AGAIN.

aminnn...

> weekend >

lambat update. huhu...

last weekend, i spent it with my big sis, kak win, her hubby and the kids, hassan, lana, n liyana.

didnt see them for almost 6months, since the kids got school and stuff. now they r having their summer break til october. yay!!!!!!!!!!

ouh.. i went there with Lawi. he got to get to know my brother in law and of course my big sis.
so he got to talk in arabic wit my bro... (i know he miss doing dat)
he got to play wit the cutest kids in the world. (dats my nephew n my nieces..MINE <dats wat liyana love to say. haha)
but he didnt spend the nyte with us (obviously he CANT!).
he went back home after SHISHAING with fareed, k.win, k.aini n her hubby (my bro in law frens)..


so the next day...

we walk to PAVILLION, KLCC... window shopping. huhu
buy something..
went back to the hotel.
change.
heading to the swimming pool.
floating>>>> teach lana how to float >> and liyana too coz she wil do anything dat her sis n bro does. aihhh..
swimming

at nyte...

*watching SMALLVILLE>>>> lana was so excited bcoz of LANA LANG. duhhh
*games>>>> 1,2,3 game (Lawi teach diz game to the kids n they'r ADDICTED to it!! mannnn)
*song>>>> ur my hunny bun sugarplum pumpy yumpy yumpkin, u're my sweetie pie.. yada3... (lana makes me sing this all nyte long. liyana keep dancing. haha.. so cute..)
**ouh.. we ate KFC. heheh

the next day...

*late for breakfast...
*check out.
*went to KL Sentral.
*K.win and Fareed dcide to go back to JB by train.
*too many probs turn up, but at last, its DONE!
*they get in the train to johore bahru at 2pm, n i'm in RAPIDKL to shah alam at 2.15pm. lucky me. =)

its a great weekend... fiuhhhhhhhh

i'm INNOCENT

Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done.Then post as you're __% innocent.

01. Smoked
02. Drank alcohol.
03. Cried when someone died.
04. Been drunk.
05. Had sex.
06. Been to a concert.
07. Gotten/given a hand job.
08. Been verbally/sexually harassed.
09. Flirted
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 97%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom.
16. Cried at school.
17. Gotten lost in a Wal-Mart or a department store.
18. Went streaking.
19. Given or received a lap dance.
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 91%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
23. Kissed a stranger.
24. Hugged a stranger
25. Went scuba diving.
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car.
29. Had a party.
30. Done drugs.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 87%

31. Played strip poker/darts/pool.
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
37. Watched porn.
38. Made porn.
39. Made beans.
40. Been in love.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 80%

41. French kissed.
42. Laughed so hard you cried.
43. Cried yourself to sleep
44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
45. Stabbed yourself.
46. Shot a gun.
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 77%

51. Watched a person die.
52. Kissed somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53. Pranked somebody.
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
56. Made spicy beans.
57. Dressed punk.
58. Dressed Goth.
59. Dressed preppy.
60. Been to a motocross race.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 74%

61. Avoided somebody.
62. Been stalked.
63. Stalked someone.
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument.
66. Ridden a horse.
67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped.
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 68%

71. Been caught stealing something.
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat.
78. Been to another country.
79. Started your house on fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 64%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 2 months.
85. Sat on your butt all day.
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 57%

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
96. Danced in the rain.
97. Been rejected.
98. Left a restaurant without paying.
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100. Been raped.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 51%

Having FUN!!!

the view of Tasik Shah Alam









with Mutawalli at Jusco Bukit Tinggi watching TRANSFORMERS

23rd of June '09

.. I'm Back!!! ..

salam.. its been a while.

my blogspot.. i 4get my p’word. haha but nOw i remember it. lol!

so here i m again, blogging.

topic for today will b about SURVEYS..

u noe, surveys dat we do n post it as a bulletin.

silly questions and stupid answers.

guess wat? i’m 1 of those who loves to do it.

y did i do it? like i got nothing else 2do?

well wen i’m infront of my lappy, i’m on the line.

wats on d line? friendster,myspace,tagged,facebook,twitter and lots more.

all these social grOup web are full wit people wit different views and of course acts

some wil make d surveys questions, some wil answers.

so what? its cyber world. u cant stop them. if u dont like it? terminate all ur acc in any social group so u wil not BERGELUMANG DGN DOSE n TAK TERBACA JAWAPAN BODOH ORANG LAEN.

i noe u have a good intention, i respect dat.

it jz d way u express it. its WRONG.

i totally agree wit u.

dari sebok jawab soalan2 survey tu, ade lg baek bwt bnda2 b’manfaat and stuff.

i agree. diz is wat i think, (i jela, other ppl,i d k)

its for fun.

xkn spnjg mase nk ngadap bku n stuff.

its not dat i forget my role as a “Khalifah Allah” d muka bumi ni.

it just, i hv my own stupid acts. n i’m not doing any harm.

sorry.. this post is a respond to a post by a FRIEND.

i’m still ur friend, n i hope someday u’ll b able 2 accept me as a friend SEIKHLASNYA. =)

ouh..if u r damn afraid terbace org laen punye stupid answers (since u kate surveys if bodoh and dose), i suggest u stop joining any social group web since its FULL wit STUPIDITY.

that shud b all. salam..