WHEN YOU THOUGHT I WASN"T LOOKING~~~

When you thought I wasn't looking
I saw you hang my 1st painting on the refrigerator,
and I immediately wanted to paint another one.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I saw you feed a stray cat,
and I learned that it was good to be kind to animals.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I saw you make my favorite cake for me,
and I learned that the little things can be the special things in life.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I heard you say a prayers,
and I knew there is a GOD I could always talk to,
and I learned to trust in HIM.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I saw you make a meal and take it to a friend who was sick,
and I learned that we all have to help to take care of each other.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I saw you take care of our house and everyone in it,
and I learned we have to take care of what we are given.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I saw how you handled your responsibilities,
even when you didn't feel good,
and I learned that I would have to be responsible when I grow up.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I saw tears come from your eyes,
and I learned that sometimes things hurt,
but it's alright to cry.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I saw that you cared,
and I wanted to be everything that I could be.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I learned most of life's lessons that I need to know
to be a good and productive person when i grow up.

When you thought I wasn't looking
I looked at you and wanted to say,
"THANKS FOR ALL THE THINGS I SAW WHEN YOU THOUGHT I WASN'T LOOKING."

``` SATU ```

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~~ ???? ~~

CLUELESS~~~~

idk wat to think..
i have no 1..
no 1...

i'm so LONELY~~

desperate??idk..

y is it so hard?
how to make things right??

i'm dying...
yeah..this feeling makes me dying..

u dont want me,u want me
u love me,u hate me
u said 1'm d only 1,u said u just cant

i'm already GONE..did i??
but i've came back.

u still there,right?
or is it wrong?

so wat should i do?
wat should i say?
wat do u want?

FAIR~~

u keep saying about that.
wats wrong wit u??y dont u understand?y is it so HARD???

i dont ask much..
i hope u'l bring a BETTER FUTURE in my life..
i dont want to FALL on my face AGAIN..

if u want to go,please go.for REAL.

i never promise u that i'l change like u did,n u lied.
i nvr promise anything,but i'd try my best to b better but somehow u changed too.to some1 else n u said bcoz u want to b FAIR.
wth is that??

REVENGE??
dont u know wat i'v gone thru?
wat i really feel?
yes..idk yours too.
but wat u do now,its killing me.

should i say THANKS to u?
can i ask for MORE of it?

and...


ARE U HAPPY DOING ALL THIS???
SATISFY maybe???


in my past,i FALL like trillions times (u know the whole story)..
n i know its bcoz me my stupid belief n ego n everything.
then i found u,lost u,came back to u,away from u,giving chance 2u,GONE,came back..

n u?wanted to b FAIR?
dont u ever think that u DOUBLEing my PAIN just bcoz u want to b fair??
wat do u get from doing all that??wat shud i think of u?
hw cn i trust u?depend on u?look up to u?

HOW???

~~ sunday morning ~~

good morning~~

hmmhh..i'm fine. i mean,physically GOOD,maybe GREAT?? huhu
but..emotionally..NOT VERY~~

going to work in a bit.


yeah~~ i'm working on sunday,didnt i mentioned before??

WORK~~!!

that's make me focus on 1 thing only.nothing else..just work..

so....b strong REBUNG! b GOOD!!!

to EVERYONE>> have a nice weekend!! **wink2**

>>>>> here i m, AGAIN~~~

ok..i did say i'm not gona write ABOUT LOVE..ok,i have to cancel dat 1.
i loves bein in love.i hate being on my own.
it just ME.SELFISH me~~

how shud i put it down in words?
i broke up wit d last guy,last dec.
found out that i just cant stand him. NO CHEMISTRY.

ouh..wat i learn from that r'ship is, i need:
>> an educated guy
>> a confident and hardworking guy
>> honest
>> most importantly, LOVE me n ACCEPT me.

cut it SHORT, after sometime breaking up wit d latest guy,i get in touch wit my ex,d 1 dats suppose 2noe me by heart....

its not easy..after some complicated issues n STUPID acts done,we somehow getting back together.

i must say i did think of wat people might say about THIS behind my back, u know, i dump him, then come back to him.n all that stuff~~~

n of coz,his feelings.he saw me walk to another guy n now i'm walking to him.i understand that.
I AM,REALLY....

but i remains silent,refuse to think about it,refuse to talk about it coz i dint do it on purpose or bcoz i want it.

IT IS NOT THAT!

i just dont to talk about it cz i thought he undrstand that those things come from him too.
i've walk away, FOR REAL! n i came back.

1>> he know i love him so damn much.he saw all sacrifation i'v done.
2>> he keep questioning my social life (wher i obviously get IT under control)
3>> i walk away coz he WANTED TO BE THE OLD ME. 'being FAIR'. dats wat he wants.
4>> i came back coz i hv no 1 to trust,to share everthing with, to understand except him.and he know that very well.

but idk.me,myself...SELFISH??CHEAP??SLUT??PIECE OF SHIT??

idk...


I REALLY DON'T... T.T

If I changed my mind,
if I changed my faith,
every time a stop light signaled
each time I made mistakes
I don't think that I
would be where I am today
I live my life without regrets
what you see is
what you see is what you get
And I'm

Unashamed of the life I lead
unashamed of the strength on my knees
of choices I've made,
of the love that I've saved
of the things I've done,
my belief in the One
Unashamed of the words of my friends,
i know who they are
make mistakes, make amends
follow my instincts, my star
on my sleeve i wear my heart
unashamed

Adding up my life, it totals all my dreams
I'm counting all my blessings
and the gifts I have received
Still there's always someone
something to overcome
Took all my life to understand
that I am what I am, who I am
unashamed

(Do you)
do you wanna know how it goes?
Do you wanna control how I feel?
Do you wanna stay in my life?
Then listen here, and listen good,
you got to get it,
got to get it right!
I'M Unashamed

(say what you want)

~~ i have a PRIVACY concern ~~

just deleted my Facebook, Friendster, and Myspace Acc...
reason??? as in this POST title.

i d k wat to do
wat to think
wat shud i feel

selfish?
cheap?
too friendly?
daring?
not sensitive?

darn it! tears go away. please~~

juz a lil clue on hw i'm actually feel...

Share my life, take me for what I am
Coz I'll never change all my colors for you
Take my love, I'll never ask for too much
Just all that you are and everything that you do

You see through, right to the heart of me
You break down my walls with the strength of your love
I never knew love like I've known it with you
Will a memory survive, one I can hold on to?

I don't really need to look very much further
I don't want to have to go where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again, this passion inside
I Can't run from myself
There's nowhere to hide
Your love I'll remember, forever

Well,don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me no...
Don't walk away from me
Don't you dare walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you
Thank you, thank you very much!


***reactivated my FACEBOOK~~

...PIECES of LIFE...

duno wher to start..
i miss HOME

miss them




want to back to JB... TT

ouh, last week LAWI n me went to Kuala S'gor (got the chance to see his high school, KUSESS)


then we went tu Bukit Malawati



n then, I CITY


dats all 4 diz post~~