MYSELF...

1st Ramadhan... again. Alhamdulillah.. =)

but i cry a lot, starting from habis tarawikh til asar tadi. hehe...

let u go.. let me go. wil we do it? i mean, for real?? its not easy. never will.. i d k..

me..
i never end up wit some1 i like. but whoever willing to stay, to love, to care, to protect me, then i'l stay with him...

me..
emotional.... kuat merajuk. kuat jealous..

me..
willing to listen to whatever her love 1 need to say.

me..
doesn't like to b alone. never want to b alone.

me..
doesn't like to b ignore n hanging on something where ther is no concrete reason or answer..

me..
wil b COMPLETELY crazy wenever she emotional. she willing to say the most dirtiest thing on earth but she'll recover soon after she let everything out of her chest..

me..
quite a good drama queen... wil say dat she'll harm herself just to keep some1 she love, to keep him stay..


now she's on her own again. falling again. with no 1 lend her a hand.

to u.. i do love. wish i can get over u..

to some1 out there, my savior (maybe??).. this is me.

i'm sorry..

againnnn

TEN HOW'S:

How did you get one of your scars?

wen i was 5.. fell down after running in the kindergarten

How did you celebrate your last birthday?

last?? with Mutawalli, Eyka@katek, Iz@bear, usop, lyas, cahaya

How are you feeling at this moment?

a lil stress..

How did your night go last night?

pretty fun,went to tesco wit Lawi, iz n radhi then had dinnet in Seksyen2.

How did you do in high school?

quiet?? Fun?? LOL

How did you get the shirt you're wearing?

Abah bought from KL, past few years..

How often do you see ur best friend?

wenever we both free??

How much money did you spend last month?

last month?? july is it? 900++

How old do you want to be when you get married?

now. LOL

How old will you be at your next birthday?

21.. shiatttt

NINE WHAT'S:

Your mothers name?

Puan Nooraini bt Hj. Tahir

What did you do last weekend?

settling college stuff

What is the most important part of your life?

evrything

What would you rather be doing?

sleep..

What did you last cry over?

missing my family back home in JB.

What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?

jokes..

What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?

sincerity..

What are you worried about?

LOAN!!!

What did you have for breakfast?

yogurt n bun.

EIGHT HAVE YOU’S:

Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?

hahahahahahahaaa! yes la dow like je kan. so yes

Have you ever had your heartbroken?

ha-ha-ha lagi! idk

Have you ever been out of the country?

yes

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?

yes yes yes yes and YES!

Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?

YES AND YES

Have you ever had sex on the beach?

aww; would think of that

Have you ever dated someone younger than you?

nope

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?

yes

SEVEN WHO’S:

Who was the last person you saw?

jay

Who was the last person you texted?

jay

Who was the last person you hungout with?

yaya , nina , khai

Who was the last person to call you?

jay jugak

Who did you last hug?

ji shu my darling (:

Who is the last person who texted you?

khairiyah

Who was the las person you said "i love you" to?

entah

SIX WHERE’S:

Where does your best friend live?

somewhere alaa dlm rumah dia laa

Where did you last go?

Aeon

Where did you last hang out?

Just now

Where do you go to school?

where? MGS la kan?

Where is your favorite place to be?

somewhere in PEACEFUL PLACE

Where did you sleep last night?

in my bed

FIVE DO’S/DOES:

Do you like someone right now?

yes

Do you think anyone likes you?

haha No

Do you ever wish you were someone else?

NO

Do you know the muffin man?

NO

Does the future scare you?

aww bring it on, I'm in

FOUR WHY’S:

Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)?

because we are one

Why did you get a myspace?

just cause

Why did your parents give you the name you have?

my mom personal ustazah gave that actually

Why are you doing this survey?

I am bored and I can't sleep

THREE IF’S:

If you could have one super power what would it be??

i wanted that cupid job so everyone have their perfect match and not hurt inside

If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?

YES , I WOULD !

If u were stranded on a deserted island & could bring 1 thing what would you bring?

edward cullen , can ? hahahahahahaa

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:

Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?

I don't have one

Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?

depends but takla dow!

ONE LAST QUESTION

Are you happy with your life right now?

i'm cool with it ;)

Abah and Mak!

i miss them. seriously. more than ever. worry about them. i d k y...

i didnt go back to JB like more than 2months. abah keep calling n askin me to come back to JB. but i said i cant, due to my part time job b4 my class starts next week (17th Aug)..

n there's some personal conflict that i had this past few months... i just dont have the guts to go back to JB. i rather stay here n finish my school 1st. then i wil go back to JB n bring my DIPLOMA. so my parents wil b happy. thats my plan. but now.. i d k..

abah text me yesterday, "abah d hospital, buat radiotherapy yang 1st out of 25sessions,kena buat tiap2 hari"

then i call, abah with mak. he's driving on his own to the hospital. i cried. if only i'm in JB.. my sis bz with her job. my bro din have the license yet...
n abah also said, Mak's blood pressure is high its 205 over 90. i wuz like, WHAT??????!!! dat is DAMN high. normal is 120 over 80. i didnt talk to mak for 2months also, merajuk i muz say. n now i really want to talk to her, i'm so worry. but i d k wat to say so i said to abah, "kirim salam mak, cakap kat mak jgn tension2". dats it. i d k wat more to say... ='(

after that i end up crying for the whole nyte. i d k wat to do. half hearted. i want to go home, but my ego said "NO". i really dunno wat to do.

i'm so sad. no. i'm really2 sad... =(

Mak Abah, Dya minta maaf lame tak balik. taknak susakn abah. n taknak buat mak risau. Dya ok kat sini. Dya blaja elok2, Dya janji. Dya janji akan buat Mak Abah bangga dengan Dya. Dya janji takkan kecewakan Mak Abah. Dya janji. Dya minta maaf if ada klakuan Dya buat Mak Abah kecil hati. Dya minta maaf. harap Mak Abah doakn kjayaan Dya slalu. Dya doakn Mak Abah sehat sentiasa. aminnnn..

LOAN>>HOLD?????!!!

yup.. my loan is been hold. dammit...

coz of this onestupiddocument..

so i went to damansara, sign some doc n they say the money wil come in a bit. early october.

IN A BIT>>> EARLY OCTOBER???? wut da hell on earth??

i need money!! give me the money laa!!!!!!


sad (>.<)!!!!!

wish...

today i'm settling my register fee for diz coming new term.
done it at BANK ISLAM.. rm250.
wil b registering for new term on 12 til 14 ou august. cant wait!!
i miss schoolllllll..... =( sob3


pay my house rent already..

so thats it.

it just....




bile loan nak masuk nihhhhhhhhhhh???!!!! help!!!!!!!!

THE PROPOSAL

wat a weekend..

i didnt see him for a week. bored like hell.

til dat saturday nyte he text me n ask me to get ready for tomorrow. A DATE!! weeeee.. =p

i miss him. i'm excited til i didnt sleep dat nyte. LOL!! yet fall asleep at 5am. ngeee

so the day is here!!
woke up at 9am... mandi manda..
and he arrived at 11.30am (an hour and half LATE)..

we went to stadium melawati for the bazar..
then to bukit tinggi, wathing THE PROPOSAL!!! =)

mannnnnnn... its hilarious!! i swear. its all ther. comedy, romance, action. GREAT!!

i love it!!!

so thats my weekend.. =)